Conflation (Beginner's Luck Award)

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"The only way out of the labyrinth of suffering is to forgive."

- John Green

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To: Jude

From: Neil

Subject: Long time no see.

Hey, Jude. It's been months since we last talked. I hope we get to hang out. But considering that I left London 3 years ago, well its nearly impossible for us to meet. Dude, are you still going to the therapy? You never update yourself to me anymore.

By the way, you know conflation.com right? You used to go there but you just deleted your account so your email is the only way for me to contact you.

Remember Vince? Vince Parker? Fuck. I met him again. And for god's sake, out of all the places, I saw him on that goddamn site.

It was ridiculous.

But dude. When are you going to tell me that incident after graduation? Is it true? Have you forgiven him? Why didn't you tell me?

To: Neil

From: Jude

Subject: I know

Hey, Neil. Sorry if I never have gotten a chance to talk to you or message you through internet or even phone. I've been busy. Glad you contacted me through email. This is the only place I visit now.

I actually just got to my dorm.

I've been studying in that university I've been bragging since middle school.

Okay, you can now celebrate and party (but you know for a fact that parties are not my thing)

Therapy was no longer in my life. Thank god. I don't have a slightest clue why everything seems so different now. I've been better. Man, I never thought you could be more of a psychic when you told me that cliche quote "Everything gets better." I thought that was entirely bullshit. Remember when I flipped one of my therapist's table because he just wouldn't stop telling me that quote? Well I hope I could apologize to him for that...

About Vince, well. Again, sorry. I did. It was after the graduation. I was being a selfish prick when I forgave him. I forgave him for my own good. Not his. To this day, I wish I've told you what happened. You still hate him, eh?

I tell you, forgive him. I have. And it was me who's been bullied. I know you can, man. From what I've heard, he's changed.

a/n: guys, all of your comments and stories have been (and will be) read. each of them can strike a chord. every one of them is appreciated with all my heart and ineffable soul. (hehe see what i did there? no? okay.) some of them are really personal and i couldn't stop saying "i'm sorry" although i know you guys wouldn't hear me. seeing all the comments made me realize that people who vote for this story are not the only ones who are really reading this. some of you i just saw. thank you. so. much. i can't even put it into words. i want to hug each and every one of you. seriously, thank you for sharing. :)

one day, you'll find that true friend who will stay with you no matter what. you guys deserve lots of good things in this world. i love you.

btw that banner though. i love it so much. made by @kissingunderwater. i posted it again cause last time i put it, people couldn't see it properly.