Dolan Twins Imagines ♥

Friends with benefits {E} part 2

I got no sleep last night. I stayed up all night thinking about Ethan and the events from yesterday. I can't believe that I told him that I like him, I'm so embarrassed. Now I have to go to school and face him, great.
I get up and get ready for school. I text Ethan asking him if he is on his way to collect me since him and Grayson always bring me to school. He never replied so after about 15 minutes I just left and walked.
I walk into school 10 minutes late and now I have to sign in and listen to my principal give out to me for being unprofessional.
I walk to my first class which is history and I have it with Ethan and Grayson. I walk in and apologise for being late. I take me seat beside Grayson.
"Hey how come you guys didn't collect me this morning?" I whispered. "Oh Ethan said that you told him to go ahead coz you were late". "What the fuck no, i was late now because I didn't get a lift and I never even talked to Ethan this morning". "Oh I'm so sorry y/n, why did he say that you were goi-". "Y/n and Grayson stop talking". Mr Hall gave out to us. Ethan was sitting at the very front and I caught him staring at me from the side eye and when he caught me he looked away immediately.
After class Ethan ran out so I quickly ran out to him. "E!" I screamed. He turned around and rolled his eyes. "What's wrong? Why did you say to Grayson that I told you to go ahead". "Coz". "Coz y?" " I just did Jesus Christ". "I'm sorry for what ever I done to you Ethan but what is your problem". "Seriously y/n leave it". "No Ethan is this about yesterday? Look I'm sorry i didn't mean to ruin our friendship if I did but can we at least talk about it?". "Look-".
Meredith came up behind him and gave him a kiss on the cheek. "Hey baby". She looked at me up and down and I frowned at her. "What the fuck do you want?" She bitched at me. "What do I want? For you to fuck off I'm trying to talk to my best friend here". "Y/n!" Ethan snapped at me. I was shocked. "I'll see you in class baby" and she kissed him again and walked off.
"Ethan what the fuck are you back with her? Seriously? Since when?" "Why is that any of your concern?" "Oh my god stop being such a dick and just have a civil conversation with me". " Hhh last week". "Last week? When we were benefits? You were fucking cheating on her Ethan with me and also-". "Also what y/n? I cheated on you too? Well reality is I didn't because we weren't going out what you and I were doing was just a fun game thing it meant nothing".
I felt tears forming in my eyes. "See you later Ethan". And with that I walked by him.
It's now lunch and I make my way down to the lunch area. I sit at the table even though Meredith is there and I feel awkward. They all look at me like I have ten heads. I try to join in on the conversation but they block me off. Grayson knows that I like Ethan. I look at Grayson and he mouths sorry to me. I have him a weak smile and I continue to play with my food.
Lunch is now finished and we all stand up. "Ethan can we please talk it's important I was going to tell you this morning but-". "Can you like fuck off please I really don't want anything got to do with you right now". "But E-". "Stop calling me E, only my best friends call me that". I can't believe he just said that. I'm not his best friend anymore? After ten years?
For the rest of the day I ignore him and everyone else and I sit out side at the football pitch by my self for lunch again.
Grayson comes out to me and sits with me. He comforts me and even he says that Ethan's a dick right now. After A few minutes I tell Grayson the important news. "I'm sorry Grayson, I didn't know how to tell you. I've known for a month but I couldn't break the news and that's the main reason why I told Ethan that I liked him". " I can't believe it. I'm going to miss you". He says as he hugs me and starts to cry. I starts crying too. "I'll miss you too, don't tell Ethan thought I'll try and tell him myself". "Ok"
I finish the day of the day in school and I head home. I walk up stairs into my now empty bedroom.
I walk in and see that everything is packed. I take out a pen and paper and start writing.
"Dear best friends, I just want to start off by saying I love you both equally. We have been best friend for years. You have been there for me through everything like when I lost me little sister, when I was bullied and when I was depressed. We have so many memories together that I will always remember no matter what. You're probably wondering why I wrote you a letter but the thing is I'm moving. I told Grayson this at lunch today and I tried telling you Ethan but it was too hard. I'm moving to Ireland because my dads company is moving there and me and my Mam can't stay here by ourselves. That is the main reason why I told you why I like should Ethan because I knew that if I didn't, id regret not telling you and I wouldn't want to argue with you over online if I told you there and then. But yeah that's that. Thank you for everything, honestly. Please keep in touch, never ever lose contact, especially you Ethan let's leave this behind us. We'll see each other again soon. Well see each other during the summer and Christmas and I'll even show up for your birthday if I am able to make it. I love you's guys. Good bye x"
I look down at the paper and I see dots of tears. I didn't even know that I was crying. I grab one of the pictures of us from when we were 11 and we were going ice skating. I stuck it onto the letter.
We filled the car and truck with stuff and we started driving. I stopped at the Dolan's house and I slipped the letter through the letter box and ran off before anyone could open the door.