Blind // Justin Bieber [under minor editing]

Chapter Thirty Four

Justin's POV;

"What are we going to do?" Courtney's voice faltered in both tiredness and sadness. I shifted beneath her, only now becoming aware of the fact that she was awake, but I was careful to keep her head situated on my bare chest. Her arm was hung loosely over my stomach, whereas mine was over her delicate shoulders, pressing her even tighter against me although it seemed impossible to do so. Her question had weighed me down all night, knowing that we would be parting soon. But I just couldn't let her go.

Leaving a silent pause, I glanced upwards in thought, my newly found eyesight allowing me to see the blank, solid white ceiling above us. I rubbed small comforting circles over her bare shoulder with my thumb, thankful that her pyjama top had left me with even the slightest bit of her soft skin. I couldn't bare the thought of parting with Courtney, her short absence had already driven me insane. But how were we to stay together, close. "You could move in" I spoke without giving it any thought, the words already sounded before my mind could think. But the idea was certainly something I was in favor of. 

I felt the small weight of her head leave my chest, and instead her palm caressed my cheek. "Justin," a sigh left her perfect lips, sadness and vulnerability laced in her tone. I tried to build myself up for the big downfall, but I found that my heart still ached at her following words, "J, I can't, as much as I would love to. I have my apartment back home, and I would never want to intrude such a special moment for you and your family. Justin, you have only just got your father back, after such a long time. You need to be with your family right now".

My arm fell from around her shoulder as she sat up, yet another sigh leaving her lips. "Maybe, maybe this is for the better." she whispered, her hands clasping together in a tight hold, her knuckles turning white. 

"What do you mean?" I countered, my voice weak as I was afraid to speak any louder with my heart pounding so fast against my rib cage. My thoughts and suspicions of where this conversation was heading consumed me, tears beginning to pool at the thought of her leaving me. "Courts, please. Just stay here with me, we can share my room, or you could have one of the spare rooms if you prefer. Jazmyn loves you, my mom loves you, and my dad barely knows you but I can already tell that he considers you as part of the family." I wildly spoke, my fear of our separation getting the best of me as my desperation came into play.

"Please, Courtney. I love you, so much, and I dread to think of life without you by my side. Y-You understand me, and take me for who I am, blind or partially sighted. You're everything to me, Courts" I began to pour my heart out, and I would have continued to do so if Courtney had not jumped from the bed in a panic.

"Gingerbread!" she gasped, her eyes wide and alert. The familiar name of her cat caused me to furrow my eyebrows at her sudden outburst. "My gosh, I'm so stupid! I forgot to feed Gingerbread last night!" she ranted, her hands waving about in exaggeration. 

Clearing my throat, I stood from the bed and walked towards a rather worked up Courtney. Wrapping my arms around her from behind, I could feel her shoulders relax against my chest, her heartbeat slowing gradually. My tears were still at bay even in this moment, and so I nudged her neck gently from behind with my nose, desperate to keep my mind away from the thoughts of her leaving me. Placing a small kiss at the base of her neck, I closed my eyes and savored this silent moment I was sharing with Courtney - holding her to me - something I wasn't sure I would be able to do in the days to come.

Turning around to face me, my arms still wrapped tightly around her waist, Courtney's eyes met mine. I was only now able to make out how her eyes changed from relaxed, to concerned within a split second. "Justin," she mumbled, gently swiping her thumb beneath my eyes, where tears had run and lingered on my bottom eyelashes. "I won't leave you, J" Courts reassured me, sympathy laced within her words. And, despite how certain I was of her leaving, I believed her words more than anything. Leaning down slightly, I pressed my lips against hers, before letting her go once again. 

"But," Courtney countered, "I do need to go back to the apartment, to feed gingerbread. I was just in such a panic yesterday, I completely forgot".

"You could bring him over here? Jazmyn loves him" I spoke, hopeful that she would at least consider the idea. 

"I need you, Courts. I need you here. And everyone will be more than happy that you are staying, I'm certain of it, you saw how delighted they were just because you were staying the night, they love you Courts." I persuaded, a reassuring smile planted on my lips.

Taking note of how her shoulders dropped in defeat, and the look of vulnerability flashed across her face, hope fired within me and my heart swelled when the words "Okay, okay, fine. I'll stay" left those rose tinted lips of hers that I loved so much.