Blind // Justin Bieber [under minor editing]

Chapter Thirty Five

Courtney's POV

Christmas day. 

Though it felt no different, the past few day's events taking their toll on the usual excitement of Christmas.

Justin had wished me a merry Christmas this morning, as soon as I had awoken, and I wished him all the same. He said he was glad to spend Christmas with me by his side, and I knew that the only way I could possibly enjoy Christmas, would be to have J with me.

Justin insisted I got showered and ready before we left for one awfully long journey to and from my room. And if I were to be completely honest, I didn't half mind the idea of Justin talking to his parents about his rather far-fetched plans without me there, their sudden move and departure throwing me off guard, and I began to question whether they thought of me as a burden they were quick to get rid of. I just couldn't help but think of the situation between me and my 'parents', and how unwanted and un-cared for I felt.

As soon as I switched the shower off, I was able to hear muffled voices from downstairs. My heart raced with anticipation at the outcome of Justin's ideas. The thought of being able to spend every day and night with Justin brought butterflies to my stomach, but similarly, the thought of having to go home and stay apart from him, tore me apart internally.

I took another minute or two to get changed into a loose V-neck and grey sweatpants of which Justin had given me to wear, before I unlocked the door and walked into his bedroom again. I folded and placed last nights clothes beside Justin's bed, before making his bed and fluffing up his crisp white pillows.

"Mom's ecstatic, Courts" a humor filled whisper approached my ears as arms wrapped around my waist from behind and a warm breath heats my neck unexpectedly. My muscles relax in his hold and my heart began to race as he placed a small, sweet kiss on the base of my neck. A content smile found its way upon my lips as I immersed myself in the heart warming feel of his enveloping arms. "And," J continued after a short while, "Jazmyn overheard about you staying, and has already begun to make plans and come up with activities for the two of you to do together" he stated, amused. 

My heart swelled with the feel of being wanted and cared for, taking Justin's hands in my own and giving them a gentle squeeze in appreciation. "I look forward to it" I mused, letting out a small laugh. Jazmyn's energetic character was sure to tire me out with these 'plans' she has made.

"I love you" J mumbled, his soft warm lips still lightly pressed against the back of my neck. His thumbs rubbed small comforting circles on the back of my hand, something I realize has become a habit now. And I replied with the same significant words. Significant within us. Us as a couple. But yet so ordinary and insignificant to those around us until they themselves repeat these words to their loved one. 

"I feel selfish" I simply deadpanned, dullness drowning me as all sense of happiness and fulfillment was consumed by negativity. Justin's arms tightened around me, before turning me around in his hold. Without giving much thought, I immediately pushed my face into J's warm, V-neck clad chest, seeking further comfort than his arms provided. My ears pushed against his chest allowed his steady heartbeat to echo in my head, the slow pace relaxing my uptight muscles yet again. Funny how the beat of something so valuable and mechanical could calm me, the assurance of his being so comforting, just seeing him could never provide this.

We stood there in silence, deafening yet comfortable silence.

"We should probably be on our way" I spoke, reluctantly removing myself from his hold and allowing the bitter cold feeling to swallow me as a consequence. His orbs swirled with concern as he gazed at me, before looking away and nodding in agreement. I couldn't help but admire as his teeth gripped his bottom lip, tugging at the pink skin, before releasing it. But my arms tingled with goosebumps as he ran his tongue along the plump pink lip. I was thankful that he was still looking away from me, therefore completely unaware of my state of utter fascination. 

We were both dressed - though rather scruffily in just t-shirts and sweatpants - and so all we needed to do was pull on shoes and then find our way to the car. I pulled on a worn pair of Nike's, Justin resorting to his usual pair of Supra's. He managed to tie his laces rather masterfully considering he has been blind for all his life.

Finding a black beanie on his bed side table, I walked towards J and combed my hands gently through his rather scruffy hair. I did this slowly as to not hurt him when I came across a knot. His fawn locks slithered between my fingers, so soft and delicate. He closed his eyes, releasing a strangled breath that hit and warmed my cheeks. Once his hair was knot-free and pushed back, I pulled his beanie over the top of his head. 

Giving into temptation, I leaned forward whilst placing my arms around his neck, placing a sweet and tender kiss to his lips, and it took no time before he kissed back with as much care and love woven in his actions. 

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The drive to my room wasn't as tedious as I had anticipated, though the journey was quiet - Justin had managed to fall asleep for the majority of the journey, his mouth hung open as deep breaths escaped and filled him - it was nice to grasp onto a little quiet time to think to myself.

My thoughts were consumed with thoughts of the future, what it would be like to live with Justin, Pattie, Jeremy and Jazmyn. And the thoughts of feeling like part of a loving family. I also reminded myself to get the presents I had bought for everyone - of which I had shoved in my wardrobe - from my room, and bring them back to Justin's house. I couldn't wait for him to open his present, the sentimental value making me feel almost queasy at the thought of giving it to Justin. I could only pray that he would love it as much as I do.

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