Rebound Mo Lang Pala Ako

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"AWWW. Flong, 'di ko na kaya. Can I leave?"

"Kat? Konting tiis pa. Pwede mo 'kong iwan sa reception, pero hindi dito sa simbahan. You can't."

"Ang sakit na talaga, eh."

"Uminom ka ng sprite."

"Doesn't work for me."

"Hilutin mo."

"Mas lalong sumasakit."

"Ignore it."

"Wish I could."

"Kat?!"

"Flong!"

"Please? You know I can't do it alone."

Nakakaintinding tumango ako kay Flong at nagpakawala ng isang malalim na buntong hininga habang hawak ang puson. Sa tuwing dinudugo kasi ako ay laging malala ang dysmenorrhea ko. Noong estudyante pa lang ako ay lagi akong uma-absent sa first day ng menstruation ko. It was really painful and I couldn't help but endure it.

Pero hindi na ako estudyante. Isa na akong strong, independent woman na kailangang kumayod para maipagpatuloy ko ang pagiging strong. I'll always be independent no matter what anyway. I'm all alone in this life. My parents died on the day of my graduation due to a car accident so even if I don't want it, I will stay independent. And of course, a woman.

I took up multimedia arts in DLSU. I got hooked to Photography so I decided to make it a source of my living. Dahil namatay ang papa at mama ay walang ibang hahawak ng negosyo namin kundi ako. I tried. But I couldn't do it. I can handle any camera but not people. Kaya imbes na pabagsakin ko pa ang negosyo ng papa o hayaan itong makuha ng kung sino mang magpakilala sa aking malayo nitong kamag-anak, ibinenta ko na lang ito sa bestfriend niya at inilagay ang pera sa stock market. I'm proud to say that the money is growing and I haven't touched a single cent of it. My work as a wedding photographer provides for my needs just fine.

Nagsimula akong rumaket bilang wedding photographer noong estudyante pa lang ako. It wasn't to earn money that I could use for any thing that my parents couldn't get me because I get everything. Nag-iisa akong anak at mayaman ang mga magulang ko kaya hindi ako nagka-problema financially. But I still suffered in life. I suffered from depression.

I didn't know how I got it. I just one day felt like nothing was right. Or more like, everything was right but I wasn't. And then I started losing the drive to do things. I thought then that maybe the cause of it was because my parents were giving me everything except a problem. I wasn't struggling since I can get anything that I want hence my mind created its own struggles. I thought it was like that and blamed myself so much. Until my mother revealed that she had a depression and almost committed suicide. Therefore, I blamed it on the genes.