Falling for my brothers bestfriend •BW

Chapter 19

"Good morning baby" Brooklyn says as he tightens his grip around my waist and burys his head into my neck "Good morning babe"  I smile and place my hands on his arms .

"No way can you remember what we did last night "  I say embarrassingly, "Yeah and you were amazing "
"okay you can stop now" I laugh
"We gotta get down for breakfast with the boys and we neeeed a shower after last night" I say turning around and kissing brook once before I get up and go into the shower.
Once I come out the shower , brook goes in . I get dressed and once brook comes out ,
We get fully sorted and head down to the lobby to where we're meeting the boys .
"Oooo someone's happy " Andy says
"Yeah someone got laid last night eh?" Rye teases
"Umm excuse me?"I ask sassily
"Yous are both so happy this time in the morning , must have got laid last night, someone had a decent shag eh?" Rye replies teasing us yet again
"Sorry to make you jealous love because you didn't ?" I reply in a joking manner with a smirk .
*cough cough* Harvey fake coughs awkwardly Ohhh um okay can we go get breakfast now?" Harvey says awkwardly staring at me , rye and Brooklyn .
"Um let's go" Blair says in a awkward manner as if he's asking a question .

oh shit

Once we get back to the flat after the few hour drive , I go to mine and Harvey stays at the flat for abit . I catch up with my mum for an hour before calling ellie to come to mine . We've got some catching up to do .

We sit criss-cross on my bed as we gossip like girls do ,
"el?" I say looking down pulling my hands to my face but smiling cheekily through them . "Mel what have you done?"
"We - um"
"no you didn't !!!" She shouts before I even get a chance to fully reply . shut up!" I laugh "but uhhh we had - se-x" "what!!" She screams "Yeah but it gets worse , Harvey's found out because this morning when we came down , me and rye were winding each other up and I accidentally dropped myself in it " I explain it all to her .  "No!" She says shocked "Yes! What am I doing with my life?" I laugh but pretend to cry as I lay forward into her arms.

I open up my phone and text Brooklyn .

I'm so sorry brook, I didn't mean to drop us in it , I'm such a idiot, I can't believe I said that , I didn't mean to , you probably hate me rn ❤️

MyBaby💓- I could never hate you ! Remember what I said last night ? I love you . And I will always mean it Amelia . It's not your fault , he would have to find out at some point anyways , it's only natural there's nothing to be ashamed of . This Dosent change anything , it's not such a bad thing that you accidentally said it but I just get why your worried ❤️xxx

Ilove you too brook , Forever & always , come over ? Ellie's here so bring rye?❤️xxx

MyBaby💓- on our way beautiful ❤️xxx

"Someone's coming to see you " I laugh to ellie "rye?!" She exclaims "yep" I smile

Ellie and rye are like reallyyyyy close , their like bestfriends with a lot of benefits, they've got a little thing but nothing official yet , they've both been FaceTiming non stop but haven't really got to see each other as much as they would like because the boys have been busy and she couldn't come to the ceremony.

"Amelia hun, rye and lover boy are here" my mum shouts up the stairs as I see ellie get abit excited and I hear  Brooklyn's amazing laugh after my mum says 'lover boy'
I see rye walk in to my room with Brooklyn following behind .
"I've missed you so much " ellie speaks into ryes neck as she jumps in his arms "same gorgeous, but I'm here now that's all that matters " he replies as they share a passionate kiss .
"Right okay, we're still here Yano " brook speaks up jokingly "ay mate we're not the ones who had sex last night " rye teases jokingly "HA, HA, HA" I sarcastically say rolling my eyes "rye mate it wasn't sex, it was making love actually " he smirks sarcastically as he puts his arm around me so that I'm cuddling into the side of him.

"For real tho what am I gonna do? I'm scared to tell my mum and dad and I'm scared to talk to harvey about it "
"What are WE gonna do" brook points out the 'we' proving were in this together
"Babe, it's nothing , Yes your scared , its normal , but your almost 17, your parents know your about to do something at some point , it's nature , every day life , it's natural and they will understand . Trust me on this one "

" I know , I know it's not that much of a big deal as what it seems but it's all my anxiety , the slightest thing is 100x worse in my head , I overthink things, get stressed about the little things , get nervous too much , I need to relax but I can't , I hate being like this , I hate it so much , I want to change , I want it to go away , it's like it's not me it's something controlling me and I miss who I used to be , I hate it so much no words can explain , It sounds like nothing but it honestly is one of the worst feelings ever , especially when you have to live every day of your life like that wishing it would leave you alone . It makes me do and think all sorts of things , I feel like I'm never Good enough for anyone , like everyone's gonna get bored of me eventually and replace me, and when people tell me go calm down , I want to but I can't, I try to I really do but it's like telling Someone with epilepsy to stop having a seizure. "
I'm I say with a tear rolling down my face

"I get it , I get it all , just remember your always gonna be more than good enough for me , I will forever love you and I'm gonna help you through it all " brook reply's so sympathetically as he kisses my forehead and hugs me tight

"Ilove you" I reply , knowing I fully mean it.
"Forever and always"

(from personal feelings , anyone else who has anxiety , I'm here because it's honestly the worst ever , this is personal to me and so I feel I can get it out sometimes in my storyline . )