Everything we never said

Prolouge

You never really think of the earth having a smell, you never really consider how the temperature changes fourteen feet below the surface when the sun goes down. Not until it's the only thing you know.

I count the stars through the hole in the ground, I can only count to ten so I just count the same ones over.
My friends are gone, they ran to get help and they were laughing so I'm not scared.

They'll be back with my daddy, he'll find me...... I know he will.

It's so cold and I hear the earth moving, I feel the bugs at my feet. The clicking and chirping of crickets seem loud in my ears. It's past my bed time, I didn't have dinner and my tummy feels funny.

I'm not scared.... I'm not.

The sound of an owl makes me jump and I curl further into a ball, my pants are torn and I poke at the grazed skin underneath. I can't see in the dark but I feel the blood, I feel the pain as I move and know my arm is broken too.

I hope my friends will still let me play? They said they were coming back.

I miss my daddy but I'm not scared, he'll find me soon.
Don't cry Veronica, you're a big girl now.

I count the stars again.

My eyes are heavy and I swallow my dry mouth, the sun was hot but now the darkness brings cold once more. My arm throbs with pain and my lip trembles, I don't remember the last thing I ate.

The darkness scares me now, I think maybe my daddy can't find me. I think maybe I'm going to die down here, my mama is an angel so I'll be okay.

My daddy will be so alone, he still needs me.

The smell of the earth turns my stomach and I heave nothing, I'm so hungry.

There's no stars tonight, the sky is dark. I hear the earth moving with life but the darkness is all I know, it's so cold I close my eyes.

Don't cry Veronica, show mama you're a big girl now.