Innocuous Confession (KevEdd)

Chapter 8 - Nathan = Rude

((* So sorry, I haven't updated in so long! I have been taking care of my kitten. Sorry for the short update, but you'll feel satisfied with it I hope! *))

"I apologize for being late!" Edd called as he rushed into the office to get a late-note.

Sometimes the secretary would write people an essay slip (usually saying that you have to write "I will check in to school on time so that I may utilize my learning abilities to their maximum extent" 100 or 200 times) if you were late too much or just plain rude about it. Some kids showed up late and acted like they were cool because of it, so she liked to put them in their place.

Edd didn't get in trouble, of course.

~'°'~

Edd hated not having anyone to hang out with at school. Eddy was giving him the silent treatment, and Ed was sick, and Kevin was skipping, and no one else he liked was in this class. Oh, what to do...

He sat outside beside the track on the bleachers. Mr. Wu had decided to take the class outside, and walking laps was optional, so Edd sat in the middle row of the bleachers (toward the right) and daydreamed. That is, until Nathan came and sat down beside him and started asking him question after question after question.

"So, what flavor of Asian are you?" Nathan asked, leaning closer to Edd than he should have. Invading his personal bubble.

"What a disrespectful way to ask," Double D remarked. He scooted a few feet across the bleachers, away from Nat. "I am half Thai, if you were actually curious. My father is Canadian and my mother is Thai."

"How is your last name Mookjai, if your dad is white?" Nathan moved closer to him again.

"They decided to use my mothers family name, because she is an only child. They didn't want her family name to die out." Edd moved away again, with no more room to get away.

"Were you born out of wedlock?" Nathan once again closed the gap.

"What a strange question. You usually don't want a thing to do with me."

"Hm," Nathan smirked and leaned back against the row of bleachers behind him, "There are a lot of things I'd like to do with you. To you."

"Dear God," Edd mumbled and stood up, "I'm going inside."

The day had gone by slowly, it felt sad and boring, and he just wanted to go home. He was glad there were only a few minutes of school left.

~'°'~

As soon as Edd was in Kevins bedroom, kissing him, he forgot how it started. Why were they kissing again? Why did Edd go to Kevins house? He didn't know.

Kevins lips trailed along Edds jaw, his neck, his collar bone, shoulders, until it was too much. Edd was practically holding his breath to keep from moaning, and Kevins dad was home. He had gotten home from work early.

Kevins fingers tapped gently on Edds sides, "Kevin, stop!" Edd laughed a bit, "you're tickling me."

"Hmm?" Kevin hummed against Edds neck, tickling him again.

"Stop that," Edd pulled away, "All of it. Okay? Let's not go any farther."

"We won't if you don't want to," Kevin replied, pulling Edd back to his body, "just let me kiss you."

"No, because if I let you, we might go too far. I don't want to." He was scared, that was all.

"So, what, you don't trust me to stay within boundaries? You think I would take advantage of you when you just said that you don't want to do it?" Kevin sounded offended, and a little bit angry.

"No! Kevin, that's not what I meant at all," Edd said quietly, feeling ashamed.

"It sounded that way. Double D, if you don't trust me, then maybe we shouldn't..."

"Shouldn't? What shouldn't we do?"

"Maybe we shouldn't be like this. Together, I mean." Kevin sounded hurt and sad when he said it, like he didn't even want to suggest it. Like he didn't want to have that option.

"No! Kevin, that's not what I want." Edd felt his chest tighten, it hurt. Is my heart breaking? It feels like death. "Kevin... Please don't do this, okay?"

"I love you, Double D. You can't just be with someone you don't trust."

Edd felt his pupils dilate, his cheeks reddened, and he felt like crying. "I do trust you. I just don't trust myself, Kevin! Every time you kiss me, or touch me, or anything, I can't think. My mind gets all scrambled and my heart sings and I just lose myself in you. Ever since my thirteenth birthday, when you kissed me, I've related you to everything. I wonder if Kevin likes bubble tea, too. I bet Kevin would hate this show. Does Kevin like this kind of pants? Kevin, Kevin, Kevin. And for the past two years, I thought you were over me. I thought you hated me for not kissing you back or saying anything... So when we're together, it feels so unreal, and I can't control myself. I just want everything, I want to have you all to myself. Sometimes I feel like I want to lock you in my house so no one else can touch you, and it makes me think I'm going insane... I love you so much that it scares me, and I worry that I'll take things too quickly and make you run away." Two tears hit the floor, both from Edds eyes, and were quickly absorbed by the carpet.

Kevin stood silent, his cheeks were burning, and Edd thought Kevin was about to cry. Wouldn't that be a sight to see? Edd and Kevin crying.

"I would never run away from you. I already said I loved you, didn't I? I would marry you right now if I could."

"It won't last..." Edd whispered sadly. All his life he'd been told that first love never lasts, but you never forget.

"How do you know?"

"We're 15 years old, Kevin. How many people do you know who are still happily married, who fell in love at 15?"

"Can't we try and be the first?" Kevin took Edds hands, kissing them lightly.

"We can try... But, Kevin, the feelings will go away-"

"I've loved you since 5th grade. I've liked you since 2nd. My feelings have only gotten stronger, so why are you so scared?"

Edd was shocked by this. In love for 5 years, liked him for 8 years... "Your feelings will reach a climax, and then they will start to decline."

"Love doesn't have a 'climax', Double D. Love is endless, or at least ours will be. We just have to try." Kevin sounded desperate, his eyes looked the part.

"We will try. But I can't promise anythi-"

Kevin cut Edd off with a kiss, just like in the movies. He put his hands on Double D's shoulders and kissed him passionately, he wanted to give Edd something that would keep him from ever losing hope. We're always going to be together. If I lose this boy, it'll be the end of me... I'll die of a broken heart. He thought, and gently wiggled his tongue into Edd's mouth.

Edd opened his mouth wider, trying to copy the way Kevins tongue slid over his own. Edd was going crazy, his mind was spinning, but somehow Kevin was keeping him calm. If the whole world were to catch fire right then, he wouldn't be scared at all. Not if Kevin was there. With Kevin, everything was okay, even death, as long as they were together. He had hope for their relationship. He wanted to call Kevin his boyfriend right away, and then his eyes snapped open. What does Kevin consider us?

"Kevin," Edd said, sounding breathy, between kisses, "What are we?"

"Uhh, are we not gay?" Kevin broke the kiss momentarily, wondering why Edd would ask him that right then.

"No, I mean, what do you consider us, relationship-wise."

"Well, I still have a few grades to raise, but I really want us to start calling each other boyfriends... Not partners, it sounds too distant, and not like we love each other. It may seem soon, but if you consider how long we've wanted this, it's been too long."

That's exactly what Edd wanted to hear, and he heard it. He felt like breaking into song.