it is nearly impossible
to breathe.
and i hate that i can't breathe and
that i am gasping for every bit of air.
it hurts to see everyone around me,
breathing so easily,
having no troubles at all.
as if i am drowning but everyone else can swim.
as if i am alone in this struggle.
i know i am not alone,
but it sucks sometimes.
this is not some analogy for depression,
or mental illness.
i just have asthma
and need my inhaler sometimes.
but i also have depression and mental illness.
