What About You? Well, What About Me?

Chapter 2 - Hospitals Are Shit, Man

{Cas POV}

My hunter. My fiance. My everything. My world. Leaving me. Again. I sit down on the bed we share and begin to cry. Who knew being human would be this hard? My little human just left for the bar, to drown himself in drinks again. The alcohol. It's tearing us apart. I hear the phone ring, but I do not bother to answer it, I know Luci will get it. I lay back and remember all the good times. I remember how he proposed. Piss drunk in the middle of the road. Next morning, he actually remembered, and still wanted me. My heart still soars at the memory before being brought down again at the memory of our fight. My Dean. My perfect little soldier.

Luci walks into the room, and I can see the regret on is face. I sit up. "What's wrong!?" I beg of him, immediatly thinking the worst. If my Dean were gone... I do not even want to begin to fathom it.

"Cas...I'm sorry." Lucifer says, walking up to me. My heart begins to race.

"What happened?" I ask through gritted teeth.

"Well first I guess I should tell you what I did." He says, and continues on to tell me what had happened at the bar. "I am really sorry, Castiel."

"It's fine, Luci, really." I say, anger filling up inside me.

"Really? I thought you might get mad..." He says, looking down at me. I jump up and punch him in the face. It catches him off guard and he falls back to the ground. I get on top of him and begin pummeling him. And he lets me, even though I should be nearly dead right now. He is strong enough.

"SON OF A BITCH! I am a big boy now, brother! I can take care of myself! You should not have done that!" I yell at him. And then I fall back and sit next to him on the floor and whisper, "It's just going to make it worse." Luci sits up.

"If I didn't do it, you wouldn't have either. He needed sense talked into him. I did it for you." He says matter-of-factly. I sigh. Big brothers...

"Who was on the phone?" I ask instead. The sadness returns to his face and I realize something is really wrong.

"It-It was the hospital. Dean has been in an accident. They say-" But I didn't wait to hear the rest. I was already out the door and on the way to the hospital. My Dean. My love. Hurt. Again. I had hoped these days were gone, with hunting put on the back shelf. If he dies.... no, that will not happen. But if it does, I am human, and can be killed by normal things. I know where the guns and knives are kept. They're all over. If there's no Dean, there cannot be me. Now, its CasAndDean. Together. Never apart. CasAndDean. I begin to cry as I try to imagine my world, dead. Dean is my everything. Take that away and I am nothing. He will not die alone. Not again. Tears are streaming down my cheeks in rivers when Luci appears next to me and zaps us to the hospital.

We show up in Dean's room. He's sleeping peacefully, though there are a lot of machines connected to him, and I cry even harder. The doctor walks in and gives us a surprised look. "You are here? Oh...well, ok. You are Dean's family, I presume?" Luci and I nod quickly. The doctor walks to Dean's bed and picks up the charts. "Well, he was in a pretty bad crash. He's in bad shape. He's in a coma right now, and he might not make it through the night." I break down. I run around the room, throwing and breaking things. I notice Luci out of the corner of my eye walking the doctor out of the room. I gasp in breath between large sobs. I lean against a wall and slowly slide down the wall. My Dean. My human. My hunter. He's gonna die. I feel a steely resolve rise up inside me. If he dies, he will not die alone.

My brother walks toward me and looks down at me.

{Lucifer}

I hate seeing my brother this way. Seeing him in such a state breaks my heart. Castiel has suffered too much already. He gave up everything. For Michael's vessel. I kneel down in front of him and gently pat his head. I give him a smile, "Calm down, Cas. Everything will be okay."

He looks at me with his tears intencifing, "HOW CAN I BE CALM? LOOK AT HIM... HE'S PRACTICALLY DEAD!" I stand up and walk towards the comatose Winchester. I stare at him for a moment before placing my hand on his forehead.

I close my eyes and focus my grace. I can feel it running through my body as my eyes take a celestic blue color. Then, I see it. I see Dean's subconcious. He's ready to let go. He wants to die. I pause for a minute. Maybe I should let him go. Maybe its finally time for him to die.

My thoughts are then interrupted by the sound of my little brother's foot steps. I then shake off those thoughts... because I know that things will get better. I take in a deep breath and begin to heal the broken human.

My eyes then turn a white color and my wings begin to show. I feel my grace leaving my body and going into the Winchester's body. His wounds heal. He was so close to death but I bring him back.

As Dean gasps for air and sits up, I step back violently. I feel a burning sensation inside me. I rest against the wall and smile as I see Castiel run to his fiancee and hug him. He's still crying but not from sorrow. I catch my breath and a violent cough catches me by surprise.

I cover my mouth, only to see blood on my hands when the coughing stops. I then see Castiel run to me and catch me from falling. "Luci! Are you okay?"

I give him a grin, "I'm fine..."

I look over to Dean; who has begun to throw up. I try to tell Cas, but the cough returns and this time, Castiel notices the blood.

"Luci! Luci what's wrong?" He asks, his eyes full of worry.

I close my eyes and try to breath calmly, "I'm fine. Go... go check on Dean..."

He shakes his head, not even looking back, "Dean's fine... you're not."

Once again I try to reassure him that I am, but I cough again and this time I fall to the floor and pass out.