What About You? Well, What About Me?

Chapter 8 - Archangels

{Dean}

   My angel was ok....he was alive and breathing. He was an angel again like he thought, only it wasn't my angel. So who the fuck was it? I stood up as quick as I could and asked, "Cas? Babe is that you?"

"Of course its not Cas. Poor baby brother is God knows where. " said fake Cas.

"Who the hell are you and where's Cas?!" I yelled with nothing but anger and worry....worry that I'd never see my angel again.

   "Don't you recognize me brother?" he said. Brother? He was talking to Luci.

"RAPHAEL?!" yelled Luci.

"Yes! We have a winner! Sure took you long enough!" said Raph/Cas. Why would Raphael wanna take over Cas?

"How long have you been in there you sonofabitch?!" I yell as I walk up to him so we're now only three inches apart.

"Let's just say little Cassie doesn't remember your love, just your mistakes." he said with a twisted grin. I felt anger, sadness and I felt broken. I pull my arm back and go to punch the asshole who had just ruined my life, but before I could he touches my forehead and I collapse to the floor, light glowing out of my eyes and pain flowing through my body. I scream and roll to the side. My world goes dark and then flashes of memories of Cas and I dance across my mind...the night I was shitfaced and I proposed to him in the middle of the road....the morning Cas first used the toaster....and then the first time I kissed him.

   I'm not sure how long it actually was....it felt like forever. I wasn't dead...at least not yet. I could tell I was on the brink of death. It was the last memory I had of kissing Cas, and in that moment...I felt lips kissing me. It was amazing. It was my heaven. It was Cas kissing me one last time. I felt better....invincible. Someone was actually kissing me...but who? I open my eyes and see Luci. He pulls away and is staring at me along with Raphael.....but he seems calm. Is it Cas?

{Cas}

It's been months. Months since I was actually me. Raphael has pushed me away, and I'm not in control of Jimmy's body anymore. It's all my brother. I cried out when he kissed Dean, and keened when Dean proposed. I tried screaming. "Dean! It's not me! He's lying to you!" But of course he couldn't hear me. He could never hear me. I screamed until I couldn't anymore. It was no use. Raphael had me completely cut off. I yearned to touch Dean. To talk to him. I just wish he could hear me.

I push against the barrier Raphael put up to keep me away. It's futile. He's much older than me. I cannot overcome him. I wish more than anything. I watch desperately as he runs into traffic. It's taken so long but now he has enough information to finally finish his plan.

I'm so glad it's nearly over. For a long time I had to sit back and watch as he stood over Dean, or Sam and think about waiting or to just kill them now. I begged and I begged. "No, please, don't kill them!" And all he did was laugh at me. I watched as he caressed the one I love, and my hunter proclaiming his love for him. "Dean, its not me!" Again, he couldn't hear me.

Raphael told me what his plans are. What he's going to do. As soon as he has enough information, he's going to kill me, at least my body, and then it will be brought back. He will show them that it's him, he's going to take Luci and hopefully kill one or both of the Winchesters on his way. And here we are. He's waking back up. Here it goes. He flings Dean and Lucifer across the room. Dean stands up... "Cas? Babe, is that you?"

"Dean, I'm in here!" I try to say. But instead, Raphael says something.

"Of course it's not. Poor baby brother Cas is God knows where." He says using my mouth.

"I'm right here you asshat!" I try again. Still nothing. I can see the pain on Dean's face. "I'm ok, Dean, I'm right here, baby..." But of course, he can't hear me.

"Who the hell are you? And where's Cas!?" Dean shouts. Raph turns to Luci, who is just starting to gain consciousness.

"Don't you recognize me, brother? My Grace isn't being shielded anymore." He says.

"Raphael!?" Lucifer gasps, finally muddling through his senses.

"Yes! We have a winner! Sure took you long enough!" Raph chuckles to himself. Dean walks up so he's nose to nose with me/Raph.

"How long have you been in there, you sonofabitch?" He snarls. I feel Raphaels intent. Once again I frantically try to reach Dean.

"RUN DEAN! HE'S GOING TO KILL YOU! GET AWAY!" But, like all the other times, he cannot hear me. I double my attempts to take over control from my brother. Luci is getting up, and Raph uses his mojo to throw him against the wall again.

"Let's just say little Cassie doesn't remember your love, only your mistakes." Pain twists Dean's features. Raphael reaches up and touches two fingers to Dean's forehead. It seems as if in slow motion, Dean is falling back, his eyes glowing a pure white. I cry out as he hits the floor. Not my Dean... not before I can tell him I do love him. Not the strong little soldier that holds my heart. Raphael turns away from the prone body of the love of my life and focuses on Luci, who is standing.

"Why?" He asks simply.

"One, I need information on these freaks. Two, I'm taking you to heaven, for a trial." Raphael answers. Lucifer does not look surprised. He looks quite calm.

"Surprise." He says. Raphael turns, and Sam is there, lunging forward with Lucifer's archangel blade in hand. Raph looks down at the blade protruding from my chest. And then everything goes black.