What About You? Well, What About Me?

Chapter 7 - What Is And What Should Never Be

{Dean}

Cas is out getting supplies, Sam is being Sam, jogging. Luci and I are sitting on the couch drinking beer and watching Dr. Sexy. What can I say? We're bored. Suddenly, my angel that is no longer an angel bursts in the door. He doesn't have any groceries. "Hey Cas. What's up?" He leans his hands on his knees as he replies between gasps of breath.

" I know...how...I can...be an angel...again." And with that bombshell he falls on the floor.

I haul my ass off the couch and pull him up and towards a chair. "Just calm down, Cas, and tell us what the hell you're talking about." Lucifer nods and leans forward slightly. Cas takes several deep breaths and then tells us.

"If I die...I will become an angel again." He says simply. Luci explodes.

"That is an idiot idea, Castiel! Father has abandoned us! He doesn't care! He won't fix you!"

"He will. Remember, once before, I died, and Father brought me back, better than ever. He will do so again, I know it." Cas says confidently. Lucifer shakes his head.

"No Castiel. He has abandoned His children. He will not bring you back. He doesn't care." Luci tells him.

"I don't believe you." Cas says. And then, quicker than you can say, "Christo", he was outside, walking into rush hour traffic. I run after him, but by the time I get to him, he was hit. The driver of the car gets out and tries to help Cas. I push him out of the way.

"CAS! CASTIEL!? PLEASE, BABY, SAY YOU'RE ALRIGHT!" I scream, clutching my angel to my chest, tears streaming down my face. "Please Cas..." Lucifer walks up and puts a hand on my shoulder. He then reaches down to help me carry my fiancé. We bring him in the house and lay him on our bed. By now, I was crying so hard, I couldn't see.

Luci goes to heal Cas, but suddenly he wakes up. "Dean?" he asks.

"CAS!" I yell, flinging my arms around him and hugging him tightly. He grins widely at me.

"Dean... I'm an angel again." And then he spreads his glorious, pitch black wings wide. I stare in amazement and then lightly brush my hand along the top of one. He shivers.

{Luci}

   I'm sitting with Dean watching a show called "Dr.Sexy", I'm that bored. I don't get these ridiculous TV shows they watch and I don't think I ever will. I should've volunteered to go with Cas or to run with Sam....I'd trip over my feet if I went with Sam. I'd be so fixated on watching him run that I'd, as Dean says, "High five the ground."

  Cas comes busting in yelling, "I know how I can be an angel again." he says while gasping for air and falls to the floor. Dean tells my dear brother to calm down and to explain what he means.

  "If I die....I will become an angel again.", Cas says. As he says this I feel my heart drop and I feel like falling to the ground crying but I stay planted to the ground and yell," "That is an idiot idea, Castiel! Father has abandoned us! He doesn't care! He won't fix you!" with nothing but anger and sadness in my voice. He brings up last time he died...how Father brought him back better than ever. I shake my head. He can't do this. No. He took my faith, and now he has his and is testing Father...and Father won't be there. Father won't do what Cas pleases. If my brother tries to kill himself, he won't come back.

   "No Castiel. He has abandoned His children. He will not bring you back. He doesn't care." I say to try to persuade him to stop. He tells me he doesn't believe me and then he runs. He runs so fast neither Dean or I can stop him. We both chase after him as he runs into rush hour traffic. Just as we're about to reach him he gets hit. My baby brother...just got hit by a car. Tears run down my face and I just wanna scream, collapse in the road and break down. Where is my Sammy when I need him?

   I put my hand on Dean's shoulder to let him know I'm here, as screams for his baby, his angel to wake up, to come back to him. I reach down and grab my little brother who is now limp and starting to grow cold and help Dean carry him back into the house. Not only does my brother being dead hurt me, but Dean is hysterical and I hate to admit it....but it hurts to see him cry like this. I go to heal him but before I touch Cas he mumbles Dean's name. Dean hugs Cas as tight as he can and Cas says,"Dean....I'm an angel again.", and then his pitch black wings open.

   Dean touches the tip of one and Cas shivers at the touch. This....this can't be happening. Something isn't right. I can sense it. "You're not Cas. I can tell.", I say in a stern voice. The fake Cas chuckles.

"How'd you know dear brother?" he said. The last thing I remember was being thrown across the room....