Being Nice Is For Losers (DISCONTINUED)

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Not long after we settled down in the living room the doorbell rang.

I groaned and stood up but what, or rather who stood at the door surprised the hell out of me. I was at loss for words until I was nearly tackled in a tight hug.

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My eyes widened as I stepped back, pushing Riley off. I secretly regretted the action but I decided to stay strong to my decision. I refused to deal with any more hurt. "What are you doing here?" I asked a bit too harshly. I hated how her already sad expression grew more sullen.

"I.. I'm so sorry... I was wrong..." She mumbled, looking as if she was about to cry.

"Thought I was a heartless bitch," I stated, trying to keep my expression emotionless.

You're proving her right...

Oh well. "I didn't mean it Maxi, I'm sorry. I just.. I don't know. I've just been so miserable since you left and I don't know what to do. I don't know what's wrong with me.." Come on don't give in, don't give in.

"I lied.. I'm sorry. I still need you." That's all it took, all I need to give in. I hugged her as tightly as I could, trying not to tear up.

"I need you to... I'm sorry Riles."

"No, I'm sorry. I shouldn't have been such an ass... I missed you so much," she muttered into my shoulder and I held her tighter.

"I missed you too. Come on let's go inside." She sniffled and nodded as we pulled away. "We can split my chicken strips." My words brought a small grin to her lips and my own mimicked hers. I draped my arm over her shoulders like I did when we were little before we walked inside.

"Oh thank god you two are friends again," Nathan sighed in relief. "You're the closest thing to a good influence she has." Riley and I laughed before sitting down. We split my chicken strips evenly and talked with the boys.

Once we were finished they started playing some boring game on the PlayStation so Riley and I retreated to my room. "Soo," I began, hoping she would open up to me.

She bit her lip as we sat across from each other on my bed. "I.. I don't know what's going on. It's like I just can't be happy anymore. I snap at everyone without meaning to, I'll just randomly shut down without reason. It feels like everyone is gonna leave me behind for someone better.. I feel numb but then it's just pure sadness at the same time. I feel like I'm losing you and Lucas but I can't do anything to help it.." She paused and her next words cut through me like a knife. "Hell, I've thought about... really bad things.. I'm just to pussy to actually do it- well.."

My heart ached, making my chest constrict in a painful manner. "Show me," I said, my voice more brittle than I would have hoped it'd be.

"It was only once I swear," she assured and that took some weight off my chest but not even close to all of it. She hesitantly pulled her shirt up enough to show a scar the size of a needle on her hip. I was glad that was all it was, it wasn't even too deep, but it killed me that I wasn't there to help her, to stop her and comfort her.

I wrapped her in a tight hug once again. "I'm so sorry.." I muttered. "I love you okay? You're one of the best things in my life. You're perfect." She hugged me tighter.

"I love you too Maxi."

"Thank god," I let out a sigh of relief. What did I do to deserve this girl? I pulled away to look at her. "Do you know why you've been feeling like this?" She only shrugged. "Anything going on?"