Band Imagines

Ashton Irwin (1)

(Y/N Pov)

Nothing went right today well like everyday, it's just a cycle of the same things each day I hate it, everyone has left me and I don't know what to do, I just need to get out but that's not possible, I have no where else to go, maybe I should just end it all, I sigh maybe I should. I decide to go for a walk that sometimes helps clear my mind, I walk to the cemetery near by and sit on a bench, I just don't know what to do anymore, I look up at the sky, it's dull like usual just like everything in this town, I look around at all the headstones, this cemetery has been here for so long most of these are from the 70s, I just wish there was something to do, well I just wish I had someone but everyone disappeared from my life, I just feel so invisible. After a few hours I decide to leave the cemetery I walk a back way not may people know about into town, where all the stupid idiots are, I walk into town and go behind the cinema where the water is, I used to come here all the time with my friends, we'd sit on the benches and talk for ages, what happened to those times? I sit on a bench and look at the water, birds flying around it every now and again, I get lost in my thoughts for a while but I soon feel tears roll down my face I laugh at myself quietly as I wipe them away, pathetic aren't I. After a while I stand up and walk over to the brick wall which I end up sitting on, my feet dangling over the water, I smile to myself as I watch the birds float aimlessly down the river, how great must it be to be that carefree. I soon feel a presence behind me, I turn and look just to see a boy sit on the bench, I go back to looking at the birds, until I hear the boy say "peaceful isn't it" I turn around and say "yeah, it is" he smiles before sitting next to me, but says "sorry if I'm bothering you" I shake my head and say "no, you're not" he nods and continues to move next to me, he smiles and says "I haven't seen you around here before" I nod and say "I'm usually at the cemetery but I switched it up a bit today" he nods and says "I love going to the cemetery, it's a great place to just get lost in your thoughts, as it is here" I nod and say "yeah, exactly". We sit in silence for a bit looking out at the water, I smile to myself, the boy looks over at me and asks "what are you smiling at?" I shake my head and say "it's nothing, why did you choose to talk to me?" He says "you seemed like you needed someone to talk to" I ask "how?" He says "you just seemed a bit lonely I saw you walk up here, I wasn't going to come over here today but you seemed upset, may I ask why you are" I look at him and say "well, you're right I am upset, the reason for it is, I do the same things everyday, I get up just to do nothing but wish everything was different, this town is so gloomy, as is my life" he nods and says "I see where you're coming from, this town is a shithole" I laugh and say "someone understands" he smiles and says "yeah, I've been here for five years and I wanna leave" I ask "why don't you?" He sruggs and says "I don't know actually, I guess because I left home and my parents said that I'll never amount to anything so I don't really wanna go back to them for them to tell me they told me so, so I don't really have anywhere to go. What about you, why don't you get out?" I say "I have no where to go" he nods and we go back to looking at the water for a bit before he asks "so, what's you're name?" I smile and say "Y/N, what's yours?" He says "Ashton" I smile and say "I like your name" he smiles and says "I like yours too" I look down and say "thanks" he nods and I begin thinking again, I really shouldn't my demons hide in my mind so if I get lost for to long I sometimes can't escape, I sigh and Ashton asks "are you okay?" I shake my head and say "honestly, no I'm not" he says "what's wrong?" I say "well the first thing I thought of today was ending it, I haven't seen my friends in god knows how long because they all left me, my thoughts are always getting the best of me and I can't fucking take it anymore" I break down not really wanting to in font of anyone especially someone I just met but Ashton just puts his arm around me and says "crying can help a lot of the time, just let it out" I nod and say "I just feel so stupid" he shakes his head and says "you shouldn't not at all, you're not stupid" I say "how do you know, you've only just met me" he says "right but I haven't left and I don't want to, the idiots around town are stupid, you are not at all stupid" I shake my head and say "I don't know about that, I cant escape my mind, my thoughts never leave, I've contemplated ending it all too many times and I don't really wanna deal with it anymore" Ashton says "hey, everybody's got their demons. some are worse than others but think you wouldn't want it to take over your life so much that it would make you end it all, you need to keep pushing through, I know it may be hard but it's possible" I smile and say "thank you Ashton, you don't understand how much I've needed to hear something like that" he smiles and says "I'm glad something told me to come over here" I nod and say "thinking about it if you hadn't I might as well have jumped" he gets up and pulls me up do I'm standing before pulling me into a hug, I smile I can't remember the last time I hugged someone, we stay like that for a couple minutes before I move away and he asks "hey, do you think I could get your number, just so we can hang out and you never know maybe eventually we could both get out of here" I smile and nod as he gets his phone out so I can put my number in it, he smiles and says "I'll message you later so you then have my number but remember, you call me at anytime and I'll be there for you" I nod and say "thank you so much Ash" he nods and says "you don't have to thank me but promise me if you ever get suicidal or need someone to talk to call me I don't care what time it is just call me and I'll be there" I feel tears appear in my eyes, he moves closer and says "no, don't cry" I smile and say "I'm sorry, it's just no one has said things like this to me normally people tell me to just get over it" he shakes his head and says "I'd never say that, I've been through the same think, where you just feel so invisible that you don't even know yourself anymore, or when your emotions start drowning you, but I got out of it somehow and now I wanna help you get out of it and look I only just met but I promise you we will get out of this town together" I smile and say "thank you Ashton" he smiles and he pulls me into a hug, I move away and look at the time realizing it's 8pm, I say "wow, how long have we been out here" he smiles and says "a while" I nod and say "I should go home" he nods and says "let me walk you home, it's getting dark" I smile and say "you don't have to" he nods and says "I know, but I want to" I nod and say "okay then" we walk to my house which isn't that far away maybe a ten minute walk, we get to my house and I say "thank you for making this day a whole lot better" he nods and says "how about we hang out again tomorrow?" I smile and say "yeah, I'd like that" he nods and says "how about I come over at around 10 and we can decide what to do" I nod and say "yeah, sounds like a plan" he smiles and pulls me into a hug before saying "I'll see you tomorrow" I nod an say "yep, see you tomorrow" we say out goodbyes before I walk inside and he leaves, I smile to myself, this is the best day I've had in a while, I can't wait to see him again, before I can do anything else, I get a message 

Unknown: Hello, it's Ashton, I just wanted to message you so you have my number, see you tomorrow :) goodnight Y/N.

Me:Thanks Ash, yeah see you tomorrow, goodnight :)

For the first time in my life I actually have some hope maybe one day Ash and I can actually get out of this place.

An: In a depressing mood again what a surprise, but if you ever need someone to talk to my inbox is always open feel free to message me.