Her Hidden Story..

Altered Forever,

       I got no sleep. I stared at him all night..It's was 10:00am. I kept checking my phone. I closed my eyes .. at 10:22am his phone rung I tried to keep my eyes closed ...I felt him move and stretch so I wrapped my arms around his neck while he reached for his phone.... 

             "Hello'

                                "Jacob were you at we hanging today? Like wassup..'

                                                         "Keith, I will be by your house around 1 bye."

            *Call Ends* He looks down at me trying to still sleep.. 'Baby, let me go to the bathroom.." I move off of him so he can go he gets up..I lay there hoping that everything was a dream..I. opened my eyes and sat up..I knew it wasn't...I knew everything happened last night. He comes back.. "Jacob..are you ok?" He frowns his eyebrows " What do you mean, Kay ..I'm fine." I watched him pick his pants up off the floor.."Do you really love me?" He came toward me and put his hands on my thighs and leaned forward to kiss me..I turned .."Hell yea..I love you more than you fucking know..If this is about last night -' I couldn't let him talk me down. "Actually it is! What was that..Huh, I told u to stop Jacob.." He moved out of my face. "You wanted it man..I'm not trying to hear none of this..I'll leave if this what you wanna talk about."

                                     "You're man enough to be inside of me but, not man enough to have a conversation about what u did?" I stand up..He pushes me back down I sit back on the bed.."Kayla... I love u ok. This is what you wanted...Isn't it!" My heart sunk.. I wondered..

                                                       Did I?  his comments made me think .Tears fell as I stared at my feet... "So you're not going to answer me huh...? Fucking typical.." I got up and got as close as I could to his face ..He was taller than me.."What's that supposed to mean?" He smirked at the idea of me challenging him. "You came ..right? You did all that fighting just to feel pleasure..Now all of a sudden you crying rape...So what if I didn't stop? Seemed like you like it rough if you ask me.." I looked him in his eyes hoping he was joking ...Hoping he realized what he had just said to me ..."Rough? That wasn't rough..! That was fucking forced..! " He pushed me onto the bed and walked toward... He reached into his pocket..'You see this... This condom was mean't for last night...If you had let me take control like I asked it wouldn't still be in my pocket..But, hey I got time.."  He walks toward me until he was leaning in between my legs ... He gets down on his knees and I'm confused on what he is doing until he pulls me forward...Forcing my body to jerk and my back hitting my bed ever so gently.. He slowly licks my underwear and shock waves are sent through my body... "See you want it...Don't you?" I put my head in my right hand.. He kisses on my thighs and comes up my body to deep kiss me... then he explores my body with his tongue leaving occasional nibbles on my thighs...

                                                                                         I tried to move away..but, I didn't want to it felt so good but I didn't want this anymore. I slid back to try and avoid his advances he pulled me thighs forward and licked by underwear so I could feel how moist his tongue was against my paradise. He looked down at me with a grin when he licked one last time..So he could watch my eyes roll up and my body tense.. He moved underwear to the side a began to give me head. I couldn't help but give in ...Soon I came all over his lips...He threw the condom across the room and got on top "Jacob..." I moaned out as he went inside of me ...I felt pleasure as he thrusted inside of me.. I once again gripped him as I began to cum ....He sped up and I reached my peak. He kissed my forehead and told me he loved me , but last night was what we both wanted...

                                                                                                                  He started to get dress while I sat there..wide eyed hoping he knew that I still didn't think what he did was right... When he was putting on his shoes I moved over to be closer to him and laid my head on his shoulder he got up and kissed me so deep like he wanted more..I looked at his phone Keith was calling again it was almost 12. I snatched his phone and answered ...Long story short he kissed on my neck while Keith complained and listened to me softly moan..He ended up saying fin 1:30 and hanging up.. I sat there thinking about if this was right. Was it rape? I mean the second time was somewhat consensual, I think?

                                                                                                                                     Wow...I really don't know...?