You Found Me

Chapter 7

Chapter 7

My mind goes blank. I can't think, or speak. I'm frozen there. "Louis, what are you doing here?" Hanna gets up from her bed. "I-.."

"Its midnight!" Hanna exclaims. I still don't speak. "Look, I know that. I just, need to talk with you, Emily." He looks at me. "Well, I'm sorry Louis. That's just too bad." Hanna comes over and grabs my hand, pulling me away from the door like a doll. "No, wait. Please?" Louis says.

I look back at Hanna, and take in a breath. "It's alright.." I finally say. She looks at me with an unbelieving look. "Will you take a walk with me?" Louis asked. Hanna watches me, wondering what I'll say. "I..Okay." I reply. Louis face lightens up, but slightly. Hanna loosens her grip on me, and she lets me go. "I'll be back in a bit Han. Don't wait up for me."

I walk into the hall with Louis, closing the door behind me. It's quiet for a moment. The sound of silence is tense as we walk through the halls.

I don't say anything, I only look down at the floor, trying not to step out of the squares in the tile floor. I used to do this all the time when I was a kid. It was like a game.

We walk outside, and the air is cool. It's not really a hot summer night. The summer hasn't been too bad. Nothing like those summer heat waves in Los Angeles.

"Where are we going?" I ask.

"Follow me." Louis says. He looks down at my hand, searching for approval in my eyes. I allow him to grab it, and he pulls me down the road, all the way unto we reached a grassy are, full of trees and flowers. I let go of his hand. There's no one out here. Just the two of us and dozens of chirping crickets.

"What is this?" I ask. "It's a park." He answers. "It's nice.." I say, looking up at the moon. It was big and full tonight. It was almost like those cliche' chick flicks or bad romance novels. "It kind of looks like cheese. Doesn't it?" Louis chuckles.

"you know once when I was six, I had this dream of going to the moon, but then again so did every kid."

"Louis, enough with the small talk." I scolded. "Why didn't you come tonight?" He said.

"Why didn't you call?" I snap right back. Louis remains silent.

"Wow, and now you're not even saying anything!" I shouted. "what am I really? A game, or some kind of publicity stunt?"

"No! Why would you even say that?!"

"Well it's not hard to imagine! Pretty little One Direction boy wants attention? Ha." I scoff.

"Emily, I didn't come here to argue. Please, just listen-"

"Listen to what? I don't want to hear you anymore. Why did I even come out here-"  

"You don't understand.." He begins. "What don't I understand? I get it. You're busy. I don't care anymore. You don't need me. Your fans need you."

"Emily-"

"It was just one date. I understand, and you know what? You deserve better than me anyway so whatever.."

"I'm stupid to even think that you would take any interest in me-" 

"Emily-"

"I-"

"Emily!" He yells. I stop rambling. "Do you want to know why I didn't call you?"

I dont have an exact answer for him.

"Yeah, you don't." He snaps, like he read my mind. He looks at me then, with melancholy eyes..He opens his mouth to speak, almost hesitant at first. "I was with Eleanor for over a year. I thought I loved her. She had became my world. But..If you didn't already read Sugarscape, then you would know that she cheated on me. Eleanor..was.." His voice trails off. I assume he's probably thinking about her smile, or perhaps an old unforgettable memory.

I feel like my heart sinking down into my stomach. My feelings feel like mush. I don't want to hear this..

"I thought she was the most amazing thing in the world." He said.

"I was scared alright? After that night, and the pool and everything..and that moment when we were about to kiss.. It made me feel something I haven't felt in months. There's something in your smile, and in your eyes. From the first time I almost gave you a heart attack." He chuckles lightly, then continues on, "I piled work on myself, so that I would have to avoid you." He admits.

I gulp. "Are you really that ignorant? It hurt Louis. You hurt me.." I whisper.

"I know you've probably heard this line, or seen it a bunch of times, but I'm afraid to get hurt again, alright?"

I fight back tears and bite my lip to stop it from quivering.

"Bull shit. I can't do this Louis." I turn from him and begin walking away.

"Emily!" Louis shouts.

"You're such a liar. I can't believe you.." 

Keep going. Don't cry, or at least don't let him see you cry..

"Emily!" He shouts.

"Emily, listen, please-"

"WHAT? what is it that you want from me?!"

He stops for a moment, then grabs me violently, bringing me close to him, crushing his lips onto mine. I yelp a bit, resisting against him. Putting my hands against his chest hitting, and pushing him away. He lets go and I slap him. Then, we don't say a word, and in an instant, I'm bringing my lips back towards his, willingly. I give in, and so does he. His hands are gripping hard at my waist, bringing me closer to him. Our lips move together in a perfect rhythm.

I had never been kissed like this in my entire life.

We finally break away from the kiss, and he's out of breath. He rests his forehead against mine and closes his eyes. He's so beautiful..

He breathes roughly in through his nose, out through his mouth. He seems bewildered. My brain feels scrambled..and I can only think about one thing.

Louis.

"This won't fix things.." I whisper.

"Emily. I want to be with you. Let me be with you. I won't screw it up this time. I promise." He says, looking deep into my eyes. Even though Louis usually wasn't serious, there was somethin in his look that made me realize he meant it. 

"Swear on it?" I say. He smiles at me and brings his hands to his heart.

"Cross my heart and hope to die."

My heart and soul are mesmerized. Did that really just happened? Never had I imagined that I would be kissed like that. Id seen it dozens of times in movies, over and over again, but to experience it myself..

"I won't screw this up.." He kisses me again.

~~

"What do you call a duck that steals?" Louis asks as we lay on the grass, looking up at the stars. It was way past midnight by now. I imagine it's probably 4 or 5 O'clock in the morning. I loved being here with him, having him near me.. Then at some point I feel as if I gave in too easy.

Oh shut it Emily. Let youreself be happy for once.

"What?" I reply.

Louis turns to me. "A robber ducky." I shake my head and let out a laugh. A grin grows on Louis face. "Here, here I got one!" I say.

"What do you call a deer with no eyes?" I chuckle. Louis shrugs his shoulders. "No-eye deer! HA. HA HA." I roll around the grass, laughing at my own joke. "You get it? No idea! HA HA HA."

Louis stays quiet, but then can't help it. He cracks out with a big laugh, holding his stomach. "Are-you laughing at- the joke, or my laugh?" I try to say, breathless from laughing. He shakes his head and crawls over me. "Both." He chuckles.

"You're turning me into a dork like you."

"Ah yes, it's part of my devious plan!" He smiles.

"Ha. Oh Lou."

"You know, those are some pretty darling pajamas" Louis winks humerously.

"Oh shut it." I smile and he gives me a smirk.