No More Golden Days

Chapter 1

Dan's POV....

It was a day like any other, wake up, get breakfast, go to school and dread, come home and want to kill myself. This became a routine for me, not something I look forward too, especially the part where I have to come home. I never tell anybody about why I avoid my family and my home so much but I guess it's because I never had a "normal family". Growing up my dad died in a car accident and my mom didn't handle it too well. She struggled with depression and to forget about it she became an alcoholic. When she got drunk she completely forgot about me and since I was an only child she would take all her anger out on me. She would beat me up nightly so some days I wouldn't come home until she fell asleep, but some nights she would come out and try to find me.

Throughout my childhood I could never focus in school and kids would always ask about the bruises and scars lining my body. Everyday I would walk in with some sort of new scar or bruise and everyone acted like it was their first priority to know what had happened to me. My teachers were even getting concerned but I still never told them what happened at home. As a kid I never saw a counselor or a therapist so I had to deal with depression on my own which was the hardest thing I have ever done.

Seven years later and everything is still the same, depression, awful grades, and no friends except the only difference was that now I was Seventeen, only a year away from being able to be free from all this hell. When I was fourteen I dyed my hair blue, when I turned sixteen I stole my mom's ID and got a tattoo, and now I started drinking to dull the pain of reality. People refer to me as the punk kid you have to avoid and I never argued with people about why they call me that. It's only been two years since that all happened and my hair's still blue but I have several more tattoos around the neck, arms, and so forth. Laying in my bed all I can think about is that the first day of senior year is in two days and I can't do anything to stop it from happening so I guess i'll have play along until then.

Phil's POV.....

It was two days before senior year would finally be here. I had dreamed of this day, being the head and leaders of the school, having special privileges, and especially prom. I am just excited to see all my friends again but I'm particularly to see one person, Dan Howell. Although he may be the schools "punk" I believe he's more than just "that one kid with depression". I had been crushing on Dan since the start of freshmen year and seeing him walk in everyday hurt made me feel awful. Although no one knows what goes on at his house and with the scars and bruises all over him, he still is beat up at school and bullied daily creating more bruises to deal with. I had wanted for the longest time to try and stop it, but I was always afraid of what would happen if I did, would Dan hate me, would I get punched, would I be made fun of for standing up for the "punk", I never knew and that's why i've never tried in all these years.

I never really took into consideration what others thought of me but I didn't care. All night my parents were asking about me going into Senior year, I'm pretty sure they were just upset about it being my last year, then getting into collage. My parents were happy for me and although I already came out as gay to them no one else knew my secret. I am always in the closet in school but I'm sure some people know, as long as they don't tell others im fine. I have a great group of friends with great stories to share but my life is never very interesting, I'm just some normal kid. When Pj, my best friend since we were little, comes to school to share all his drama that has happened within the last week or so it always comes to mind what Dan's life has been like and just what made him so depressed.

My friends never want to talk about or even bring up the subject that Dan exists. Pj knows I'm gay but never has asked me who I like. Whenever I bring him up my friends all get suspicious and tell me again, that he's not a good role model and I shouldn't even think about him as being a "friendly" person. I never really understood what made people hate him so much, he seems like a decent person for starters and all he's ever done is show up to school and try to act normal. I just don't understand what's wrong with people these days and I feel the next time Dan get touched by some idiot i'll just show them a piece of my mind.

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Alright so that was the first "Chapter".

I hope you enjoyed and I know it was short but they will be longer in the future.

Tell me what you thought of it and if you would want to see more, or if you want it to be continued!

-Jay :3