No More Golden Days

Chapter 2

First day of school...

Dan's POV...

    The first day of school, the day i've dreaded since the last day of school. All my life i've been trying to escape this hell but now it seemed I was inviting myself in by walking straight through. As I left my house this morning I hadn't seen my mom. Even though I never see her she wasn't even in bed but I didn't really think much about it. I approached the building where all this shit would start back up, but in the back of my mind something triggered telling me today was going to be different.

    I started walking up the path which lead to the entrance until out of the corner of my eye I caught someone staring at me. I turned my head slightly to look and it was Phil Lester, but the moment I made the eye contact he immediately looked away. He was sitting with a group of people I didn't know around an outdoor picnic table, and when he looked away the others looked over at me as well, then turned around and started whispering. Phil wasn't even paying attention to what they were saying so instead he stood up and walked away. After that I realized many eyes were on me so I  made my way into the building but not even two minutes later I was already being shoved against a locker by a group of jocks.

    Instead of trying to fight my way out of it, having tried before, giving me a black eye, I let them continue. They kicked, punched, laughed and all I could was stand there.

"Hey, what's with all those god damn scars from? Huh?"

"How about you being so fucking depressed you cut yourself?"

"Ya I bet".
The snarky comments went on and I was starting to feel weak besides the point they punched me in the gut. I looked away and saw a slight glance of a figure running through the doors only to have my head violently ripped back causing my neck a lot of pain.

    From what I could see the figure had started walking towards us. Suddenly I felt the jock let go of the collar of my shirt and I relaxed only to see Phil standing in front of Jason, the lead jock of their little gang. Jason looked at Phil with a look of fury and disgust and I got anxious something was about to go down so instead of letting them harm him, I stepped in front of Phil pushing him back lightly and directly facing Jason, "Leave" was all I could stagger. Jason laughed and he and his crew turned the opposite direction and started walking down the hall just as the bell rang I turned around to see Phil and behind him kids trailing in the double doors. As soon as I saw Phil's friends walking up then looking back at Phil all I could do then was turn around and walk away. I headed to homeroom right as a kid named Pj reached Phil. As I walked down the hall I could feel Phil's eyes still staring at me until I made a turn and into class I go, thinking about what I could've done. In my mind all I could say was, I am so sorry Phil Lester but I'm not worth it.

Phil's POV....

    I tried processing what just went down but it was useless. I couldn't take my eyes off Dan and all I felt was guilt, I probably made the whole thing worse for him and myself. Shortly after the whole "incident" I could feel Pj's hand tugging at my shoulder and turning me around to face him.

"What the hell was that?"

I didn't respond so he said it again but more tense.

"I don't know ok Pj, I don't want to talk about it"

was all that came to my head seeing I had just spoken to my crush for the first time but yet couldn't get any words out. Pj sighed, rolled his eyes, then pulled me with him to homeroom.

    Dan Howell was all I could think about throughout the day and the first day didn't come out like I would ever expect. The last bell finally rang and I headed to my locker where Pj was already waiting leaning against the other lockers,

"What the hell were you thinking to even walk up to that punk Phil?"
was his first words to me.

"Does it matter?"
I reply sharply followed by Pj looking at me with full concern.

"He's not for you Phil and i'm just trying to help"

and I immediately respond cutting him off,

"well guess what your not helping very much"
I say as I slam my locker shut.

"Come on our group is waiting"
Pj says while smirking,

"It will get your mind of things, just come on"
he says as I turn, look at him, then follow his lead out to the school's courtyard.

    "How was your first day Phil?"

Louise says as I approach. Me and Louise have been friends since middle school and she's helped me through most of my problems.

"Fine"

I  sit down. Twenty or so minutes later I had zoned out from our conversation until I hear my name,

"Huh Phil, you want to join?"

Casper says as I look up and out of my thoughts.

"Come on Phil it will be fun!"
Louise says

"What are you guys talking about?".

Pj looks at me

"You want to go with us to London this weekend?"
I look at him

"no"

Louise looks at me,

"Phil this isn't you, what's going on?" 

but right as she finishes I look over to see Dan walking down the pathway towards the front gates. I assumed he was just going home, so I didn't bother with it.

"Fine", I'll go, but only because you want me to",

Casper and PJ both cheer, I look at Louise and she's smiling.

"Ok I've got to go, or my mom will get mad at me"

Louise packs her bag, then stands up and walks over to me.

"I'm free if you need to talk"

she says in a whisper, then turns and walks away down the long grey path leading out the gates.

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Hi!

so that was the second chapter

I decided to post it tonight because I had it done

Tell me what you thought and I hope you enjoyed!

See you in the next one!

-Jay