The child, the Wild and the Morbidly awkward Introvert

Tina-Reaching out

I felt filthy in ways that even I found it hard to explain despite my extensive vocabulary. I kept wanting to back out of the suggestion I had put forth. Deep down I knew; backing out of the suggestion was entirely out of the question. I took in the smartly dressed, pearly toothed men and women sat around me and smiled to myself; I cherished the joy dancing over their polished faces.

"Are you sure you don't want to order anything yet?"
I almost jumped out of my skin when Sparrow's breath stroked down my neck; warm and unnerving as he asked me a simple question I had suddenly forgotten how to answer. "Yes." I somehow managed, reaching out to squeeze a hand over his narrow, sinewy wrist; it  comforted me with its hardness and its warmth.

I knew I had no real right to ever think of him as mine; the beautiful man beside me was a succulent miracle I had feasted on for too long and now I had slipped past the dark state of no return.

As I tore my gaze away from the man that I would have willingly traded my entire life for, I forcefully lifted myself out of my warm chair. Sparrow followed me with his blazing blue eyes flecked through by gold and green; precious gems that filled me with enough warmth and hope to continue and resist the dark fate that awaited me mere breaths away.

"I'll be back-" I let my hand massage his unruly hair, feeling my heart pound. My soul froze as I dragged myself away from the man I had once foolishly believed that I could spend an eternity of our simultaneously pounding heartbeats with. I knew he could continue without me though; unlike me he was young, a beautifully carved sculpture by Angels to be cherished and adored for ever "-excuse me please..."

I weaved my way through a throng of women dressed in figure-hugging dresses. Their sagging bodies cruely were  crushed against creaking bones by expensive spandex.

I could sense the steely grey eyes on me. Theey found me amongst the blinding camera flashes, tore through my racing heart.

I ducked out of sight; into the shadows. I had accepted the fate. Sparrow would be safe. I focused on the scents of sweet champagne, mouthwatering chips and other dainty little morsels laced in oil prepared to only fuel appetites and leave space for even more food.

I almost smashed into a voluptous woman clad in a sheer pink dress with a fake beauty spot painted to the left of her ginourmous lips painted the colour of fresh blood. She did not recognise; instead she glared into my wide, petrified eyes, searching through the emptiness for the fumbling soul that had dared cross her path to slow down her walk across the shimmery floor decked by small bauble-shaped lights.

The lights flashed on and off at intervals like a stop sign and splashed bare flesh, manicured feet and pearly teeth with alien colours: red, scarlet, maroon.

My eyes stung; tears blinded me, soaking my skin. The sadness punched a ginourmous hole through my heart. I almost fell to my knees. Instead, I faked a cheeky dance to the music and my entire being tensed as I waited for the fate that I had chosen, after it had sought out and chosen me.
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Cora-Recruitment

I had been feeling hyper thanks to the excitement pounding through my body. It was making me feel like my heart was about to tear forwards out of my chest, dragging my body behind.

I had dressed myself in a black, sleeveless dress with a navy blue suit jacket over it to cover my arms. A navy blue and silver necklace settled against my fragile, prominent collar bones and accentuated the very pale brown tone of my thoroughly cleansed skin.

I had applied my eyeliner as dramatic and daring as always; slightly annoyed that it made my eyes look too big. The mascara only added to the overall overwhelming width and largeness of my deep brown, mysterious eyes. My hair was pulled tightly atop my head, accentuating my elegantly long and slender neck, revealing my countless white gold ear peircings. My feet were encased by elegant, navy blue ballet flats. When I finally left my room, I clutching a black lace clutch bag and felt like a jittery teenager going on a first date; Ollie, Alex and Meena applauded as though I had just won a Nobel Peace Award.