Addict With a Pen

Chapter IV

We walked close together, Josh's arm still around my shoulders. I hung my head trying to figure out what I was doing. I just met this guy. All I know about him is his name. Something in the back of my mind trusted him.

After walking in silence, for what felt like no time at all, Josh let go of me. I was a little upset that he had, but quickly pushed that thought away. I looked up into his chocolate eyes that looked softly down at me. I couldn't exactly read his face. When I looked away from him I saw we were at what I assumed was the front door to his house. The door was white, but not perfectly white from what I could see from the dim lighting provided by the street lights. He took his keys from his back pocket. I watch his every move, not in a scarf way but in an admiring sort of way. It seemed a little creepy that I was staring at him so intently so I stopped as he opened the door and stepped to the side to let me in.

"You can stay in my room I can sleep in the couch tonight" Josh stated, nervousness evident in his voice. I looked at him blankly. He chuckled nervously. He couldn't seem to smile or laugh without showing his perfectly white teeth. I melted slightly at the sound of his laughter, but I didn't change my facial expression. He waved his hand and tilted his head to the hallway beckoning me to follow. I followed him like a lost puppy. Slouching out of nervousness. We reached a doorway to his bedroom. His bedroom light flickered on. I squinted my eyes not use to the sudden brightness. His room was cute. Decorated in posters and some clothes throw here a

nd there on his floor.

Josh headed towards his dresser pulling out some sweatpants and a shirt. Similar to what I was wearing.

"Umm l, imma go get changed I'll be right back." He said simply as he left the room. I walked over to the bed and sat down admiring his posters. I looked over to the door noticing a full length mirror hung from the back of it. I looked at myself through it still sat in the bed. 'Damn I look like hell' I thought to myself. My skin paler than it has ever been. My check and collar bones promo are in a skeletal way. I looked dead. I brought my hand up to touch my cheek, eyebrows furrowed in self pity. I sighed and dropped my hand to meet the other that laid in my lap. Just as I did Josh stepped back in with a clear glass filled with water in it. He handed it to me, I took it with no intentions of drinking it. I simply sat in in my lap avoiding eye contact. I could feel his eyes burning through the top of my head.

"Drink" it sounded more like a command, his voice still soft. I couldn't move, I felt stuck. I couldn't stand the feeling, my insides churning at the idea of anything being consumed. I shook my head faster than I had intended. It seemed kind of childish after I did it. Suddenly Josh's hand met my chin lifting it to look at him. He slowly crouched down to be eye level. "Please" he whispered not removing his hand from my chin. His other hand aided me in lifting the cup to my lips. Thoughtlessly I took a sip not removing my eyes from his. He moved his hand from my chin and instead placed it on the side of my arm. His other hand still on top of my hand that was holding the cup. I took another sip. He smiled at me, not a very big smile but a happy one. I just kept my eyes locked on him. I took another sip. My heart was racing. I felt like I was in some sort of paralyzed state staring into his caring eyes. I drank more. Before I knew it I was done with the glass. He backed up only slightly taking the glass. That's when the feeling hit me. My stomach dropped. I felt disgusting, I felt I was going to puke. I gripped at my stomach eyes being pulled away from Josh's strong gaze. I felt the warms of a tear spill. I hadn't meant to cry especially not in front of someone else. Immediately Josh placed the glass down on the hardwood floor and collected my weak body in his arms. It wasn't until now that I realized how much I needed that hug. I broke tears pouring from my eyes. My breathing became quick and stuttered. I wrapped my arms around him. He slowly moved so we were both in the bed he leaned up against the headboard still holding me to his side. I curled into his side crying harder than I believe I ever had. He didn't seem to mind, he just sat there holding me tightly. Letting me cry out everything. After crying for what seemed like forever. I felt my body relax a little and soon enough my eyes were consumed by darkness. 

// Hey guys. Hope you enjoyed another chapter. I wanna try and post a chapter everyday so it can be completed by the end of next month. Please leave a comment what you think of the story. Should they just stay friends or should I go all out jostler/tysh??? Thank Much Luv xoxoDesi