Addict With a Pen

Chapter XV

I could see the rays of light swarm into the room through my dark curtains. It was like my life hasn't changed, it was how I felt before I met Josh. It was a lonely sick feeling that never seemed to leave. I was interrupted from my thoughts when i heard a tap on my door. I ignored it hoping that whomever it was would just leave. The knocking started again, but I still didn't move. I looked over at my phone that resided in my jacket pocket.

'Hey Ty'

'Ty?'

'Tyler love is everything okay?'

'plz respond'

'Tyler I'm coming over'

The last text was from ten minutes ago. The banging was louder now almost urgent. I heard the door knob turn and click. I didn't locked the door last night. Josh came barreling in whipping his head around. His eyes soon fell on my small frame. I tensed as i felt his eyes on me. He rushed over to me and kneeled in front of me.

"Ty what happened?" he reached out and touched my cheek wiping the fresh tears away. I didn't speak, I couldn't. He pulled me in after waiting a few moments for a response. I fell loose in his strong grip. He moved so he was cradling me in his arms and placed his chin on my head. "Why didn't you call me? I would drop anything I was doing to make sure you were okay." I began to shake profusely as he began to rock us whispering reassuring this that i didn't actually listen to. "You are so important to me Ty. You don't have to open up to me, but I would listen to you all day if it would make you feel better." I just sat there in his arms staring off at nothing. Josh moved his head to look at me, "Hey? Do you hear me." He asked softly. "How 'bout we move to somewhere a little more comfortable?" I nodded slightly. He quickly picked me up and I laid my head on his shoulder not wanting him to let go of me. He hit the light switch as he walked past it and sat us down on the couch. "Do you want to talk about it?" He moved away from me slightly. I shook my head quickly in fear he might think I was crazy. "You sure? You look pretty shaken up..." he trailed off looking into my eyes. I didn't return the action instead I just kept shaking my head mouthing small 'no's to myself. I scratched at my brow again then looked him in the eyes.

He grabbed my wrist gently pulling it away from my face, placing it in my lap. He used his other hand to cup my face and he brought it closer to his not losing eye contact. Our foreheads touched as he stared into my eyes. His chocolate eyes were filled with sadness for me. He leaned his head in a little before our lips touched it a short healing kiss. I closed my eyes as he backed away slightly. He moved away from me causing me to open my eyes as I watched him walk into the kitchen. I heard the sink running and soon enough he came back with a glass of water.

"Here." Josh held the glass out for me to take. I grabbed it and began to sip from it. The water was cold as it trailed down my throat. He wrapped an arm around my waist and pulled me to lay on top of him in a way so I could still drink. He then laced his fingers into my messy brown hair and rubbed small circles on my scalp. "Are you hungry?" I shook my head in response. "Well I wanna take you outside get some air. You could really use it." He laughed lightheartedly. He pushed my body to get me to stand. I complied and went to my bedroom to get some clothes. I could feel Josh's presence behind me. No one had ever been in my room.

When we got to the door I walked in, Josh on the other hand felt up and down the wall 'til he found the light switch. The room looked like it belonged to a hollywood psychopath. There were papers everywhere. Most were crumpled into balls and thrown towards my small metal garbage can. Others were pinned and tapped above my desk. The room was overall a mess. I felt my cheeks burn with embarrassment, but I walked straight to my closet for a shirt and i grabbed black skinny jeans from my drawers. Once i collected the clothes i looked over shyly at Josh. His eyes were wondering around the room. His face was unreadable which didn't help my nerves. Soon his eyes met mine and led down to the clothes in my arms.

"Oh, I'll be in the living room." He turned on his heels and walked out closing the door lightly. As soon as i was dressed in fresh clothes, i walk past my mirror not daring to look at myself. When I saw Josh he stood and I put my shoes on. He grabbed my hand as we left for our walk.

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