A Story of a Transgender

Chapter Three: For You

Chapter 3

"What do you mean 'If I would've said yes to that date it could of been me?' What could have been me?" I sigh in sadness.

She sighs too because she knows my pain. "I mean if you would of said yes on going out with me, I would have been going out with you and not the guy I'm going.."

She stops because she knows the next part she's going to say will absolutely break my heart and continues.

"Out with... I've liked him for a while and you made me forget about him. Now that he finally asked me out, I had to say yes. I'm so sorry, Matthew. Sometimes, things happen for a reason. I really liked you, too. I really like Jason."

Oh my fucking god. Did she just really give me that line? 'Sometimes things happen for a reason.' That bullshit. I can't breathe at this moment and my heart had literally broke right in front of her. I could feel it as she said every word.

"Are you mad at me?" She asks me.

"No no, I'm not mad, I'm just.." I sigh and walk away without continuing my sentence.

I walk up to my friends as I see them at my locker waiting for me.

"Hey guys." I say with utter sadness.

"What's wrong?!" Both Jack and Jenna say together. They always know when I'm sad or something's wrong.

"I finally told Annabelle what I was going to tell her about that date..."

"And?" They said together, again. I hate when they do that.

"She has another date.."

"She what?! What. The. Fuck." Jenna shouted, we all knew she was about to go on a rant.

"She has. Another. Fucking. Date. I said."

"I knew what you said, dick basket! I meant why did she even ask you out if she was going to say yes to another date anyway? That's literally the most fucked up shit ever, man. Where is this bitch? I'm going to have some words with her."

Oh my god, no, nope. Just nope. She cannot yell at Annabelle, she's going to say some fucked up things to her and she'll regret it. Annabelle will never talk to me again after Jenna yells at her! What am I going to do?! Maybe Jack can help.

"Um.. Jack? Can you please control Jenna for me? I don't want Annabelle to hate me, I love both of them, but Jenna really hates her and I'm scared to even think about the things she's going to tell Annabelle."

"No way, man. I cannot control Jenna at all. You're on your own on this one, but I will tell you; Jenna's weakness, where you hit her hard so you'll know she won't do anything to your precious little princess. Her weakness is Pierce The Veil. Get her concert tickets for the show they're preforming next month, she's been asking her mom for weeks. Okay? Do that and she won't say anything to harm Annabelle, but she'll still talk to her because what she did to you was fucked up and I want to see everything that happens."

"Jeez, thanks Jack. You saved me, dude. Now to go tell Jenna I'm getting her those tickets. I'll get three so we can all go together."

"Awesome! Pierce The Veil, here we come. Jenna will be so grateful of you. So will I. We love you already, but you're the bomb."

"Jenna, could I talk to you about you confronting Annabelle... please?" I asked her nicely hoping she'd listen to reason.

"Sure, but I'm not giving in no matter what. I'm still going to be a bitch to her because of what she did to you. It's fucked up in many ways."

"Okay okay, but before you say 'you won't give in no matter what,' listen to this first. How would you like to go to the Pierce The Veil concert next month? The concert you've been bugging your mom about for weeks? I'll save up money for thatifyou won't be a bitch to Annabelle when you tell her something about her doing what she did. Deal?"

"OH MY GOD OH MY GOD OH MY GOD MATTHEW I LOVE YOU SO FUCKING MUCH!" She shouted.

"Of course I won't be a bitch to Annabelle for concert tickets! Especially Pierce The Veil. I love them so much. My heart was aching hearing those beautiful words come out of your mouth."

"Thank you so much, Jenna. It means a lot. It's just I was so worried that you'd be so mean to her that she wouldn't want to ever talk to me again because you did that and I'm friends with you. Best friends with you, but I'd choose you and Jack any day over her, okay? For the concert, Jack and I will go with you because where don't we go together?"

"That's so true man, we're like the three musketeers. Anyway, my mom's here so I'll see you guys on Monday!"

"Bye, Jenna!" Jack and I shouted back.

"Where'd you pop out of?" I asked Jack and winked at him with a grin. "Listening in on our conversation?"

"Hmm... Maybe." He giggled.

"Asshole."

"Cunt."

Jack and I went back to my house and played video games all day. He spent the night because it was a Friday and the only nice thing my mom ever did was let Jack spend the night and Jenna come over sometimes.

We went downstairs to take a rest from video games. My ass was getting tired of sitting on the floor anyway.

"Hey, mom. Jack and I just took a break from video games and wanted some food." I told her.

Jack stayed quiet whenever him and I were around my mom because he knew that anything she would say always came out as a rude comment, joke or her making fun of me in some way. If he ever spoke up for me to her, he knew he wouldn't be allowed over here anymore. I did it for myself when he wasn't around like I did.

"You're already fat, why do you even try?" She said when she knows that I'm a skinny bitch.

We both ignored her and made food ourselves anyway even though we hate effort.

We went upstairs and finished our burgers and fries. It was 7:54AM, we went to sleep. Jack slept in his sleeping bag and I slept in a blanket on the floor.

As I fall asleep I keep over thinking about what's going to happen on Monday with Annabelle and Jenna.

The only thing I'm able to do late like this is over think, so I do.

Is Jenna really going to keep her word and not be a bitch to Annabelle? Because Jenna has her moments, plus she really hates Annabelle and I don't know if Annabelle is going to be mad at her or not. What's going to happen after the fight? I don't know what to do anymore, I just wish I hadn't fucked up and gave her a sooner answer. Ugh! Why didn't I just answer exactly when she asked? I wish I could just go back in time already. Why can't I just be normal and make decisions on time? I can't believe I got all of my friends in this madness. Okay, Matthew, you're done. You're done over thinking. Now stop. Stop! Stop! Ugh, you can't stop. What? Why am I referring to myself in a second person. I'm so weird.