A Story of a Transgender

Chapter Thirteen: A Daydream Away

Chapter 13

We're inside the hotel room. We're here, this is really happening. What is life right now? Ugh, stop worrying, Matt. Everything's going to be okay. What if it's not? No no, there's none of that. Oh god what if she sees that I'm not physically a guy? What if she hates me. Ugh, but that doesn't even matter! I need to stop over thinking...

Oh, great. Now I have a lump in my throat. Can't talk when you have that can you.

Annabelle was the biggest whore in school ever, was. I never even noticed she changed because I guess I never noticed when she actually was a whore, but now she's my girlfriend. I never imagined this and now she wants to... fuck? I guess.

Oh, c'mon. You don't just rent a hotel room for anything, now do you?

"Hey, babe. Let's get on the bed and turn on Netflix h'm?"

There were rose peddles on the bed and candles lit on the counters, plus the lights were dim.

"Oh-" I paused and scooted on the bed next to her. "Okay! That's it?" I looked at the ground awkwardly and it seems that we just had the same idea.

"Yeah... why? Did you think we'd do anything else?"

"No, no. I was just confused about how you rented a hotel room for the weekend just so we could watch Netflix when we do that and my house and your house anyway. Why is that? And like what?"

"Well, darling... because we never have any privacy in your house or mine! I wanted this weekend to be special for the both of us, and I know what you're thinking, but those days are over and you're still a virgin, right?"

"Uh- right! I am and I'm too scared for this so..." I laughed nervously trying to change the subject and she gladly followed along. "Let's watch Freaky Friday h'm?"

"Okay, I like that movie... and you. C- can we cuddle and sit close the whole night?"

Okay so she's my dream girl. Where the hell has she been all my life? Or at least before school started in life.

"Where the hell have you been all my life?!"

"Loving you from a distance."

Isn't that the cutest shit you've ever heard? I don't think I'll be able to let her go.

"Can we love each other forever?"

An awkward silence fell over the room and I knew right away that she was the one. She didn't have to talk to let me know the answer to that question because when she kissed me, held my hand and slowly fell on the bed with me, I knew that was a yes from her.

I mouthed, "I love you so much."

Yet again, she spoke with her actions. Don't you love how you can actually show love and not just tell it?

"Babe, want some beer?"

"Ooh hell yeah! Want to borrow my T-Shirt?"

"You're perfect."

"You're beautiful."

We went on and on, when I was with her it was like my own mind popped out of my head and became a reality.

"Hey, want to know what I used to think of you when we didn't even know each other and I had a huge crush on you?"

"Of course I do. Want me to go after?"

"Yes, and you were what I dreamed about, beautiful, intelligent, nice, amazing and I couldn't wait to have you, but then I realized what opportunity did I have where I could have you?"