A Story of a Transgender

Chapter Seventeen: How Do You Relationship?

Chapter 17

I kept asking Marcus what he meant by asking Jessica out... and yet nothing.

Why wouldn't he tell me anyway?

That was a week ago that I asked him, he hasn't talked to me or told me why since then.

Wait... a week ago.

A week.

Tony asks me out today, oh my god. I am not ready for this.

I called Jenna to tell her... she usually gets me in a calm mood.

(On the phone with Jenna)

"Hey... Jenna?" I said awkwardly.

"Yeah, Matt? What's wrong? I recognize that tone in your voice."

"I like Tony and he likes me... he's going to ask me out today, Marcus just told me he talked to him and it's... it's going to happen, I don't know what to do, Jenna."

"I know what to do."

"That's why I called you, thank you. Oh and how are you and Logan?"

"Ooh we're great! She gave me a black rose exactly alike the scene in American Horror Story. 'I know how you don't like colors' thing."

"That's nice... well what should I do?"

"No, it's not nice, you're sad, something's up and I need to know."

"You always have to know every little detail of why and when I'm sad don't you?"

"Yes, yes I fucking do."

"I love you and It's because what you and Logan have is so beautiful. I get jealous and want it like that with someone for me, too."

"I love you too, kid. And you will. With Tony."

"But you don't know that, no one knows the future."

"But I know you have a future, Matthew. With Tony, as you said, you like each other and he's going to ask you out, yes?"

"Yes, but-"

"But nothing, Matt! Stop having doubts, do you know why doubts were created?"

"No, but I sure as hell know you know why and you're going to tell me."

"And I do. Thanks, smart ass. They were created for one's mind to think down of themselves. You know what you're doing? Thinking down on yourself. Stop that okay? I'll be here with you through it all to stop doubting yourself of great wonders for yourself. I'm going to make you happy one day and I'm not leaving you until I do that, even when I make you happy, I still won't leave you. I'm your life partner."

"You and your poetic side... and thank you, I'm your life partner too, right?"

"Thanks again, now I know what to do about Tony asking you out, and of course you are, you always have been."

"Okay... what do I do then?"

"Just be calm, that's they key. If you're calm, you'll be okay, I'm sure of it. The second thing you need to do is when he approaches you, look into his eyes, get lost in them until he wants you to listen to him, but don't stare and don't get lost for too long because that's just creepy... Got it?"

"Got it... thank you again, Jenna. How do you know what to do?"

"You're welcome, kid and as I've told you before, wisdom. Much wisdom."