stressed is an understatement. i wake up everyday at 3am and feel like crying because my eyes burn and i feel sick. i'm always alone at 3am and god, i hate being alone.
if you know me well enough you'll know ever since a few months ago i have to constantly do something because if not i cry and start to feel very lonely. wether it's read, write, go on my phone, listen to music, i have to do it.
i can't remember the last time my throat wasn't burning because of the acid clawing at it. the pain so heavy i feel myself become light headed and i pass out. but that's still not enough for me to sleep because i wake straight back up.
my stomach is numb and i'm not eating properly, i can't. food can't pass my mouth without feeling dirty and that it isn't for me.
sleep well, 4:10am
