Romeo Is Bleeding

10

"I've always thought bout running away to the Dominican Republic." I stated randomly. It was two hours till my birthday and Romeo was taking me out.
"Where did that come from?" He asked grabbing my hand while still driving.
"I don't know. Ever since I was little I would dream of running away and growing bananas."
"Bananas?" He busted out laughing.
"What's funny?" I poured snatching my hand away.
"Your just amazing. I swear your innocence is like a breath of fresh air."
" I'm not innocent" I said slapping his stomach.
He grimaced in pain and I instantly felt bad.
"It still hurts huh?" I asked referring to the bruises he got on his body four days ago.
"I'm good." He grinned.
"What really happened?"
"Queen we not doing this. What I do at work..."
"I can hardly call what you do work." I said under my breath.
He stopped the car.
"I buy you what you want... and need. Put a roof over your head feed you take complete care of you and you say the things I do ain't work." he dryly chuckled. "You bugging B."
"I never asked you to do those things." I felt myself getting mad.
"Well shit Nova. You could've fooled me cause you can't do shit for yourself."
"Pull over!" I yelled. He stopped the car again and I got out.
"Where are you going?" He grabbed my wrist making me turn around and slap him.
I looked deep into his eyes. "I don't want and don't need nobody. Fuck You Romeo!" I snatched my hand away and walked to the near seat bus stop.
"Fuck you then!" He yelled behind me getting back in his car driving off.
The bus came ten minutes later.
"Where to go?" I asked myself. I couldn't go to my mother or Romeo's. Tally bro is at her place the only place I could go was my grandmas but I really don't want judgment. Walking to the payphone I called Ant.
"Wats good who this?"
"Nova. You seen my cousin?"
"Sleeping Why?"
"She still with you?" I was sorta shook. Justice never stays with one nigga for this long. And I could've swore she was talking to a 30 year old nigga.
"Nah she got drunk. Came over sucked my dick and fell sleep."
I nodded my head. "That's sounds more like it. Anyway can I stay the night?"
"Sure." He said nonchalantly.
"I don't be playing."
"Nah ya nigga might murk me."
"He's not my nigga no more".
"Aight see ya." We hung up and a started walking towards his house.
Not bother to knock cause I never do I walked into the living room and crashed on the couch. I slowly closed my eyes before Ant jumped on top of me.
"So what happened?" He asked laying on me.
"What you talking about?"
"You and that nigga. What's good with you?"
"He thought I needed him." Ant made a confused face. "And I don't. I don't need anybody."
"Man I don't get you females. Why you always gotta be so...so... independent?"
"What the fuck?" I yelled.
"I don't mean it like that. It's just that you all wanna be all I can do it by myself when you can't. And always talking bout I don't need nobody when you do."
"And you figure this because."
He looked me dead in my eyes and said. "Cuz no one can't do it alone and everyone needs somebody."
I sighed. Who would've thought Anthony would drop knowledge on me. "When did you get so smart?"
"I'm not a dummy Nova. I just hang with them." He said rolling a blunt.
"I thought you stopped smoking."
"I did for a day." I shook my head.
"Gotta start somewhere." He shrugged his shoulders and blew smoke in my face. "You want?" He asked. I nodded and took a hard pull. We smoked about four more times and I was out of it. I looked at the clock to see it's 12:02.
"Happy fucking birthday to me." I giggled.
"And a happy fucking new year." Ant joined in.
We just sat in silence watching the people partying in time square on the tv.
"Is there something wrong with me?" I asked out in the open. "I mean why can't I be that happy?"
"You sabotage yourself."
I look over at him confused. "How so?"
"You believe you worth nothing so that's what you get... Nothing."
"Oh." I said not knowing what else to say.
"Look your my sister. Even tho I'm not around I do care."
Ant walked upstairs to his room leaving me thinking. I got up and went to the bathroom to wash my face. I found myself staring in the mirror.
I didn't think I was nothing. I just think I've been given a pretty shit hand.
But Romeo treated you like a queen.
Well he treated me like shit tonight.
You were pushing
No
Than what were you doing?
I can't believe I'm arguing with myself.
Well believe it. If you weren't pushing what were you doing?"
Loving him. That's all I ever wanna do and now...
You can't
I don't wanna
Don't wanna what
I lied
Don't wanna what?!
Need him.