Love Me Now?

Chapter 45

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JUNGKOOK'S POV

"Ergh!!" I shouted, punching the door once before I fell onto my knees, letting the tears rolling down my cheeks. "Just why!" I clutched my hands together and kicked the floor hard with all my might.

Lost.

That's how I felt after hearing her saying she didn't love me. After all the time we spent together, the love and care I'd been showing her, the struggles I'd been through just to get myself better for her -I learnt. I learnt how to be a better person so that I would never ever break her heart and dragged her down all over again. Never ever be the same badass I'd been regretting till now but..

... She actually never sees it.

I swear we've been  more attached as time passed by. Even though we started everything with pure hate and wrath, everything changed drastically as we got to know each other - the way I thought of that person; from the ugliest person to the most beautiful person anyone could ever witness in this world; from someone whom I once treat like an animal to someone who I want nothing but take care and protect like my life entirely depends on it; from someone whom I wish I can abolish completely from my life to someone who I truly want to keep in my warm embrace and hold them so tight that nothing can ever let us fall apart because I'm just the man who afraid of losing the one I cared the most.

And here I am, thought that she would also feel the same things but no.

She doesn't.

"Please," I breathed out and shut my eyes tight, letting the tears flowing out of my eyes and wetting my cheeks. "I-I don't mean what I said." My voice cracked as I balled my fist so tight, bearing with the pain that was hammering my broken heart.

It was too hurt and painful to handle, the fact that she didn't even love me after all this time made my life be numbed and I felt so deeply lost. The thought that she would be away from me forever was the least I wanted to happen. Heck, I don't want that to happen forever.

"Why Seulhi? Why? Do you really have to do this to me?" I wiped the tears that was wetting my cheeks and leaned my head back over the door, banging it against the hard surface.

"Damn god." I clutched the shirt right above my heart and closed my eyes so tight whilst my mind playing the scene of her slapping me. "I love her so much."

I love you. Is it that hard to give me a chance and love me back?

Some part of me told me I shouldn't believe any words she said while some part of me said otherwise. Her eyes held thousands of meaning behind it; the way it shaking and the way it stared back into mine gave me the hope that she might be lying about all the things she said but, it was ruined by her mouth proving it and pushing me away when I kissed her.

Never did in my entire life I felt so hurt before. I was the one who would always hurt others feeling. If I knew it would be this much, I doubt I will ever dump the girl I'd dumped before.

I felt so proud and respected whenever I break girls heart. I never know and honestly, I never care about how broken they feel and how they endure their broken heart. It must be so hard for them because I technically feel the same things by now.