Internal Sacrifice

No Regrets

I'm shuffling through the canadite profiles, when Gideon walks in

"Nervous?" He asks me.

I shake my head, only half sure that I actually mean it.

"Can I ask you something?" Gideon continues. I mumble yes only half listening to him

"Do you ever regret coming?"

This caused me to drop the papers in a startle, I look up at Gideon.

"Of course not, coming here was the best thing I ever did for myself." I reply as sincerely as I can.

Gideon grabs a chair and sits next to me

"Why did you come? What made you want to abandon your whole life?".

When we first came, they didn't make us disclose are reasoning. But Gideon isn't asking as a leader of a coven he's asking as my friend

"I always just felt so alone. My parents were gone, I had no siblings, no friends, I had nothing to live for. Then you guys showed up and you promised a new beginning, I'd have been crazy to pass that up."

"Then why won't you change?" Gideon asks with no emotion in his tone.

"Because I still need to be me, if I becoming a vampire I'm no longer Katie Albertalli, I'm more like a ghost."
I respond quietly.

Gideon and I have always had a special bond, ever since I arrived. He protected me from the moment I stepped through the walls, acted like a big brother. It was his idea to add me to the council, he wanted me to have a voice, said I had to much bravely and potential to waste it. He also was the one person to never see me as just a human.

"Even if I meant trust between you and the others?" He questioned

I hesitate for a moment

"If there is no other way, I guess I would have to. Hopefully if the trial succeeds we won't have to find out."

As if on cue, Christian walks in
"Sir, Mam, your first guest has arrived."

My body begins to uncontrollably shake, but it goes unnoticed.

"Will be out in a minute."
Gideon replies, he then looks over at me and holds out his hand

"Ready?"

I nod

"Ready."