New Journey

Chapter 24

Amal's P.O.V

I rolled my eyes and walked out of the kitchen into the hallway, the doorbell rang again who the fuck could it be right now?

I walked over to the door and opened the door to see a guy stood there, in a black hoodie and pair of demin jeans.

"Hello?"

The guy looked up and looked at me, his grey eyes focused on my face. "You are Amal aren't you?"He asked, his voice ever so deep.

"What? Who wants to know?"

He looked at me and rolled his eyes at me, he took a step closer and yanked my arm closer to him.

"Who the fuck are you?"I said as I pulled my arm away from him. Slowly, my foot behind the door closed the door so whoever this man was couldn't go inside.

The door closed, the man yanked my arm around this time I couldn't pull my arm away. "What are you doing?"

My hand curled up into a fist, his fingers tried to wedged in between my fist but it wasn't working.

"What the fuck are you trying to do?"I said as I tried my best to yank my arm away from him. "Move the fuck away."

Someone pulled him from the back, he let my arm go and ended up thrown on the floor.

That someone turned around to see it was Zabdiel, dressed in a green tshirt and a pair of black jeans. He looked at me. "You are okay aren't you?"

"Yeah I'm."

He turned back around to see that person gone, Zabdiel turned back around to me. "Who the fuck was he?"

"I don't know."I replied as I shrugged my shoulders. "He didn't even answer me, for some weird reason he straight went for my arm."

"Did you recognise him?"Zabdiel asked as he looked at me. "Or have any sort of idea of who he could be?"

"N-No I don't."I replied as I looked at Zabdiel. "But thank you though, god knows what would of happened if you didn't come."

"Dont think about that."Zabdiel said as he let out a sigh.

"Can you not tell the others about what just happened though?"I said as I let out a sigh. "I don't need them worrying out of their minds right now."

"Yeah sure."Zabdiel said then this awkward silence sat itself between us for a few mintues.

"Look Amal, I came because I want to talk to you about how this whole thing is going to work."Zabdiel said as his hand rubbed the back of his neck looking down at the floor.

"Things aren't going to work in your favour for a long time."I said as I let out a sigh. "I didn't leave, you did. You walk out on us like we meant nothing to you."

Zabdiel let out a sigh. "You really didn-, but I want to see him. He's my son and you don't know how much I miss him."

"You are an amazing father but I think it's for the best that you keep some distance away."

"Distance? You are joking aren't you? You want me to keep distance away from my own son?!"Zabdiel said with a scoff.

"You left us on that night, you left us we didn't leave you did we?"I responded as I looked at him. "You went and we didn't, I'm trying to figure things out right now and you are making it more hard."

"I'm making it hard just because I want to see my son?"Zabdiel said as he raised his eyebrow.

"Not like that, by being everywhere. What happened still hurts, it'll still raw it's like it just happened a few hours ago."I explained as I let out a sigh. "My heart was already broken but you shattered it in a million of more pieces, me being stupid thinking you could fix it. If I allow you in again, my heart will no longer be there anymore and you would of love me then and hurt me tomorrow."

"You don't know how much I'm hurting as well or how much I hate myself for leaving you both but I don't know what to do to show that it'll never happen again."Zabdiel said as he looked at me. "I miss you, I miss our son, I miss us sitting in the living room cuddled up and Cyrus sat on my lap. Just one mistake I did and look at all of this now, I wouldn't blame you not to forgive me and I know forgiveness takes time but please don't take it on me seeing my son."

"I'm not, I don't want you to miss the moments of Cyrus growing up at all because you are his father, without you he wouldn't be here now but all I'm asking is for time and distance."

"Can we do this inside please?"Zabdiel asked as he looked at me with a hopeful expression on his face.

"Yeah sure."

I turned around and opened the door, I walked in and Zabdiel bent down and picked something up from the floor.

I stood by the door as he looked at the thing in his hand then walked into the house.

"He left this."Zabdiel said as he handed a piece of paper in my hand.

I looked at the piece of paper which was rolled up in a cigarette kinda way, me knowing what it could be. I put it in my pocket then we walked into the living room.

Zabdiel sat down on the couch where as I sat across him cross legged.

"So when would you like to have him?"I asked as I looked at Zabdiel.

"Well I'll be in the studio starting next week on Thursdays, Mondays and Fridays."Zabdiel replied as he looked at me. "So on Tuesdays, Wednesdays and Saturdays."

"For the whole day? Are you sure?"

"Yeah I'm, like I said Amal I want to spend time with him."Zabdiel said with a nod.

Kat walked in from the kitchen and looked at us both. "Oh, you came back we thought you got eaten at the door."Kat said with a chuckle then looked at Zabdiel, biting her lip and touching the side of her nose showing her interest in Zabdiel.

She gave a little wave. "Hey there Zee-di-eel."

"You said his name wrong."I said as I rolled my eyes at her.

"It's Zab-diel."He said with a soft chuckle as he looked at her.

"I'm sorry, it's Zab-diel."Kat said as she let out another soft chuckle. "I'll get use to it don't worry."

"It's okay, you aren't the first person to get my name wrong."He said as he looked at her.

Kat sat herself next to me. "What are you guys talking about?"

"Nothing to do with you."I replied as I looked at her. "It's a private conversation so can you leave?"

"Such a polite way to say it."Kat said as she rolled her eyes then she got up and left the room.

"Sorry about her."I said as I looked at Zabdiel. "Let's carry on."

"I would like him for the full day or for a night."Zabdiel said with a smile on his face.

"Yeah sure, you can have him on the days you want."

Zabdiel looked at me, his smile on his face grew bigger. "Really? For the full day? And a night?"

"You can have him for a night on the Wednesday and Tuesday."I suggested as I looked at him. "And for a day on Saturday."

"Oh my gosh, Amal you don't know how happy this makes me."Zabdiel said with a smile on his face.

"It's about one of us are happy."I mumbled under my breath then me and Zabdiel hugged.

He went into the kitchen where as I pulled out the piece of paper out and read it.

It was exactly what I thought.