Shadowhunters Preferences

Maybe Sorry Will Be Our Always - Jace Pt.2

It's been a week since you freak out and it sure left a first day back impression. Alec has been working his ass off to make sure you never cross paths with Jace or the girl and Izzy has been using her best argumental skills to convince you to forgive Jace and try to get to know Clary.
It just pissed you off more.
Why your parabatai enjoyed the company of the annoying child was a mystery to you, but you'll let this one go unsolved.
You continue to spend your time killing demons and training more and more. You've barley let yourself have a break but when you do either Alec or Izzy comes to keep you occupied.
Everyone in the institute knew you were a bomb waiting to go off a second time.
You continued to to release some your wrath on the punching bag in front of you, but it wasn't giving you the thrill that you craved anymore. You then saw Alec walk by so you stopped to get his attention.
"Hey Alec! Where you going?" You asked. Alec has been the only one you've been normal with. You just wanted things to go back to the way they were.
"Y/N." he nods, "I was just heading to Magnus' place." You smiled at the name of the warlock. Maybe not exactly back to normal.
"Ooh can I come." You asked him. The first chance Alec got he whisked you away to Magnus' so you could meet the much talked about warlock. You absolutely loved him. Sure he was a downworlder but it wasn't you who had something against them. That's why enjoyed the fact it was Alec out of everyone who ended up with one.
"Not today Y/N. Magnus and I have some serious matters to discuss." He replied. You couldn't help but let the frown show on your face. It took too much energy to conceal your emotions anymore.
Alec saw you face, "Sorry Y/N. next time?" A small smile came on your face at Alec's reply. He's been the best thing in the institute since your return.
"No it's okay Alec. I think I'll go for a walk anyway." You replied. Fresh air sounded amazing right about now.
"Are you sure? Do you want Izzy to go with you?" He asked. He was such a worrier anymore.
"No I think I need some time to myself for once." You replied smile in fat the thought of getting out of here by yourself.
"Okay, just be carful Y/N." he stated, kissing your head and rushing away to get to his boyfriend. Man do you love saying Alec had a boyfriend.
You sighed before going to your room. New room. You took a quick shower putting on some clean clothes and headed out the door.
"Where are you going?" An all to familiar voice questioned as you closed the door to your room.
"That doesn't concern you Jace." You stated. Your whole body was now tense and your teeth gritted.
Don't do anything stupid Y/N. you want to go outside right?
You turned to look at the man you once... no you still loved. You scanned his face to see a faint bruise on his jaw. You couldn't help but smirk.
He still deserved it.
"What do you want Jace?" You said tired of being in this conversation.
"I was coming to talk to you but if your busy..." he trailed. You could tell he was not okay. You took the time to scam his whole body. His stance was tense, his fists clenched like they were about to punch anything.
Is that why he's here. To return that bruise.
You then searched his eyes looking for anything he might do. But all you found was guilt and sorrow. You have never seen that look.
"Well I am so I'll try not to see you around." Your words were cold as you turned and walked down the hallway. You could hear him sigh.
"I'm sorry." He exclaimed down the hall. You stopped walking but didn't turn around, only looked to the side.
"I'm sorry too."

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You took another deep breath of the air like you were getting a high off of it.
You were. It felt so good.
You loved to take walks through New York. Even if it was pitch black with only the stars and moon to light the way.
You had lost track of time in the institute. Probably why Alec was so worried.
You sighed in bliss as you continued to walk down the sidewalks of the streets until a sign caught your eye.
Pandemonium.
It's sounded so familiar like you've heard it recently. It must of been a new club you heard Izzy talk about. You shrugged your shoulders before tugging your shirt down a little and heading to the bouncer.
He let you in and you weren't sure if it was because of your actions from before or the rune that now showed. You immediately regretted coming into the club when you saw the warlocks and vampires that littered the dance floor.
I didn't want any trouble tonight.
Your frown was clear as day on your face as you made your way to the bar.
Maybe a drink would help.
You ordered a drink and received it in record time. You took the moment of finally being alone to think.
Jace.
That's all you could think about. And it hurt. A lot. You sighed just in time for a random stranger to come up and start hitting on you.
"Hey baby what's a girl like you doing alone in a place like this." He smirked at you. You looked closer to notice that he was in fact a vampire. A smirk came on your face as you purposely scratched you neck so he would notice your runes. His smirk only grew.
"No need to make it obvious babe. I could smell you across the dance floor. All I need is one bite." Your smirk disappeared as he spoke.
The downworlders have sure gotten more daring since I've last been home.
You thought as you clutched your dagger that was hidden in your belt.
"Now now vampire. Not in my club." A superior voice spoke. The vampire snorted at the high warlock behind him.
"Trevor, leave." A new voice spoke from behind Magnus. You eyes immediately narrowed at the new stranger that was on your side.
Another vampire.
Your eyes scanned his body as Trevor complied with his request.
"Y/N. I seen you've found my club. And trouble, but I hear you find a lot of that." You smiled at the warlock.
"Ha ha Magnus. Make fun. Jace had what was coming to him." Magnus's face held a smirk that was more sympathetic then anything.
"Well that is true. In other new Y/N, I would like you to meet a dear friend of mine Raphael." The vampire that stood beside him stuck his hand out. You skeptically placed my hand in his as he raised it to his mouth to place a chaste kiss on it.
"Pleasure to meet you Raphael." You say to the vampire remembering the stories that Alec and Izzy had told you about him. Some good and some bad.
"Pleasures mine Y/N. Any friend of Magnus is a friend of mine." He said gently letting go of your hand. A real smile appeared on you face from the interaction.
"So Y/N, what are you doing here?" Magnus cut in breaking the trance you were in.
"Well Alec wanted to visit you privately so I decided to go for a walk and found this place." You replied. Between the few interactions between the two of you and the stories Alec had told you, you knew you could trust the warlock with your life.
"That's interesting. Alec never came by." Your eyes scrunched in confusion at the information.
Alec had lied to you. What?
"Oh then maybe I should head to the institute then." You replied the hurt clear in your voice.
     "Maybe he got sidetracked. You know how he is, running the institute." Magnus offered but it you feel any better.
     "Maybe. I guess I should head out now." You frowned.
     "Until next time Y/N." Raphael spoke, kissing your hand once more. You nodded a polite smile to the vampire and kissed Magnus' cheek before heading to the exit.
     Alec seemed like he knew where he was going. And he doesn't get sidetracked very easily.
      You then head back to the institute, taking your sweet time almost dreading it. But as you reached the front door, you knew you had to talk to Alec.
     You stopped the first person you saw and asked where Alec was. They frightenly answered and scurried away.
     Shadowhunters these days. So weak.
    You followed the directions that lead you to the kitchen. You could kill two birds with one stone. You were hungry and Alec was suppose to be here.
     You casually walked into the kitchen only to have a pair of strong arms wrap around you. You tried to scream and get out but before you could hit them they threw you over their arms.
     "ALEC GIDEION LIGHTWOOD! PUT ME DOWN THIS INSTANT!" You yelled slapping Alec's back as he chucked and carried you down the hallway. Soon you stopped knowing Alec would only put you down where he wanted to take you.
     He then dropped you on a bed.
     "Okay first the lying and now the kidnapping. Seriously dude. What did I do to you today?" He just chucked as you hit his arm again.
     "Well the lying was to set up this and the kidnapping... well... you wouldn't of come any other way." He exited the room before you could get up and you heard something heavy being pushed in front of it. You took it as a chance to look around. You were in your bedroom. Your old bedroom you shared with Jace.
     You then noticed a rose and a note logins on the bedside table.
     Well I guess it wouldn't hurt to look at it.
     You picked it up and we're surprised that it was addressed to you.
     I'm sorry.
     That's it. That was all it said.
     "Y/N" Jace's voice spoke from behind you.
      "A note. You think a fucking note that says I'm sorry will make me forgive you. You are pretty damn–"
     "No. No no no," he cut you off, "I just wanted to start." You looked down at the note again.
     "Look Y/N. I know what I did was unforgivable. And I don't blame you if you never forgive me. All I want to do is try. This past week has been hell. It's like you were a dream I had and then suddenly your gone. I didn't realize you were real. When Clary came, I just felt a connection to her. It may be because of some twisted thought that Valentine out in my head, but it was there. Everything was happening at once and some things just happened. It's a lousy excuse for kissing someone who isn't you but–,"
     "Kissing her. You think I'm mad because you kissed her?" You asked cutting him off.
     "Why else would you be mad?" He asked confused.
     "Jace," you said exasperated, " do you not remember how many other people we kissed at the beginning of our relationship? Remember how we were before each other. You hooked up with practically anything in sight and so did I. It's how we were and we knew it was going to be hard to committed. I knew we would have our doubts randomly in this relationship. I was doubting it after being away for a whole month. I'm fine that you kissed a girl, but it was only suppose to be one and done. One kiss and it's wait I still love Y/N. Not one kiss, then two, then your sleeping together and oh wait now Y/N's back."
     "Wait I never slept with Clary. I only kissed her once. Before we thought we were siblings, after that it was weird, even when we knew we weren't related. So yeah there were nights where we couldn't sleep so we talked until we did, but that's it."
     "You never slept with her?" You ask your voice cracking and tears streaming down your face. He shook his head.
     "No never. The only connection Clary and I have is seeing angel Raziel. That's it." He reassured stepping closer to you.
     "I'm sorry I even gave you a chance to think that." He continued closing the gap between you and him.
      "I'm sorry." You whispered looking at him.
     "Shhhh. It's okay I'm the one who needs to be sorry. This is all me." He consoled you.
      "No I  overreacted and this is all my fault and I'm so so sorry." You cried too his chest as he hugged you.
      "Y/N don't even think that. I am so sorry." You couldn't help but let the laugh escape you and your tears.
      "Maybe sorry will be our always." You said but it was muffled by his chest.
      "What does that even mean?" He asked confused. This made another laugh escape your mouth.
     "It's a movie I watched in my motel one night." You answer look up to the man you love.
     "Well it must I been a good one." He whispered looking into you eyes. It was you who decided to close the gap between your lips and kissing him with as much passion as you could manage. Jace returned the kiss with just as much passion and longing. You we both reluctant to pull away, but you both needed air.
     "One thing," you say slightly out of breath, "I still don't like the red head." Jace chuckled at your comment.
     "Well you didn't say hate so I think I can work with that." You smiled at him as he wrapped his arms around your waist and pushed you on back on his bed climbing on top of you. 
     You and Jace spent the night trapped in his room talking, kissing, and just enjoying each other.

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     It only took a little while for most things to fall into place. You and Jace were officially back together and happy. You enjoyed yourself with Izzy and Alec. You and Magnus were the best of friends (it sometimes made both Alec and Jace jealous). You even enjoyed talking to Raphael, but Jace made sure he was with you at all times around him.
     You and Clary still didn't get along, but you didn't provoke anything and she knew better than to try to talk to you. She will always be the girl who kissed your boyfriend. He and Jace were still close friends, but never without a witness anymore.
     Life was good. You were happy. And to Jace, that's all that mattered.