So Rose and I got in a fight, and not one over what movie we want to watch, a big fight, and our first one. I know I shouldn't have told her how I feel about Travis, but he pushes my buttons so bloody much, and then there's Rose using my last name against me, which she knows I hate so I know she hates me now which is just my luck.
I left the common room after that. I wanted to avoid my problems so I just started walking. I end up in front of the library which just feels like a cruel joke, but I go in anyways because I have nothing better to do and might as well get the homework I was planning on doing with Rose, done, so I go to a table and get to work.
I'm deep in thought on my transfiguration paper when Madam Pince taps my shoulder.
"Mr. Malfoy the library is closed."
I sigh and nod, grabbing my things and putting them away. "I'll be out in a minute." I mutter. She nods and walks to her front desk. I guess I'll be doing my essay in the common room.
"Goodnight." I mumble as I pass Madam Pince's desk.
As I enter the common room I see my friends whispering around the fireplace. Probably about me so I go to the other side of the common room and finish my papers. It's only twelve when I finish so I decide to study for upcoming exams. I look up from my History of Magic textbook when I notice it's brighter in the room. It's sunrise. I slowly stand up and stretch. Then I put my stuff into my bag and head up to the dormitory.
No one's awake yet so grab a library book out of my trunk and close the curtains around my bed and start to read.
Soon my roommates start to stir. but I ignore them. It's only when Albus calls my name that I realize I've been staring at the same page for a while.
"What?" I grumble.
"You're going to miss breakfast if you don't get up soon." He says with a nervous tone to his voice.
"I'll meet you down there." I say but the truth is I won't be leaving my bed today.
"Oh.. Alright." He sounds almost disappointed.
When I'm certain that everyone has left I change into sweatpants and a t-shirt and just lie down on my bed. I know no one in my year has any free time until after lunch so I don't have to worry about seeing anyone for a while.
I guess I just can't believe I screwed up that much with Rose, Merlin I'm stupid. I should've just kept my opinion to myself, but did I do that? No! Of course not I just had to go and ruin my friendship with Rose.
Next thing I know there's a knock on the door. I guess I fell asleep. I sit up and rub my face, only to find dry tear streaks. I guess I was crying too. Great!
"What do you want?" I yell, I never was one for being subtle.
"It's Rose." She mumbles nervously.
I slump back down onto my pillow. Even though I feel guilty, I don't want to deal with this so I just ignore her.
"Scorpius please! I'm sorry I shouldn't have gotten mad like that. Please Scorpius unlock the door." She pleads, which only makes me feel worse, but I'm still not answering her. I'll end up crying or yelling or something that I don't want to do if I see her.
"Scorp please answer the door. I'm worried about you." She cries. She never uses my nickname, so it cracked my stubbornness. .
"Fine." I reply, my voice cracking. I grab my wand and mutter the spell to unlock the door under my breath.
"I'm sorry." We both say at the same time. I keep my head down so I don't have to meet her gaze.
"Scorp please." She walks closer to my bed while still giving me space. "Please talk to me." And with that she sits down at the edge of my bed.
"I'm really sorry I said that. It wasn't fair of me to do that, especially since you were just worried about me. I'm really sorry." She whispers, her voice cracking. I think she's crying but I still don't look up from my hands.
"It's fine." I force out then shut my mouth so I don't start crying again. I feel Rose shift on the bed so she's facing me.
"It's not though." She sniffles. "I know that you hate being labeled as just a Malfoy and I used it against you. But you're not just a Malfoy your my best friend and I'm really sorry."
Against my better judgement I look at her face. "I should've been more open to Travis.. I guess.. I. I just didn't want you to get hurt is all." I mumble. Rose just looks at me then dives at me, which scared me at first, but then I realize it's a hug, so I hug her back.
We both start crying, but Rose has it worse than me, so I rub her back to try to calm her down.
When she calmed down enough she sits up and says, "Promise me we'll never fight like this again." Which surprises me.
"I promise Thorn." I mumble, her nickname making her laugh. I like her laugh, it's pretty.
"I soaked your shirt with my tears." Rose says through her laughs.
I look down and surely enough my shirt is quite damp, making me laugh. "It's just a shirt." I stand up to get a clean shirt when Rose grabs my arm.
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Bloody hell, I think as I remember I'm wearing short sleeves.
"Um Rose dear, I kinda need my arm to change." I force a laugh, but instead of letting go she grabs my other arm, examining them.
"Scorpius, what are these?" She whispers, giving me a chance to explain.
"Just scars." I say as I go to move away, but Rose's grip is like iron.
"Scorpius, some of these aren't even old. They look recent. They're not even healed yet.." She trails off. I sit back down on my bed and look at my lap so I can avoid her gaze. She doesn't say anything as she pulls me to the sink. She starts to wash the cuts, making me shudder.
"Sorry." She whispers. When she's done she goes to my trunk and tosses me a t-shirt, then sits down on my bed facing the door, giving me privacy to change my shirt. She gave me another t-shirt. I just stand there not knowing what do next when she pats the space next to her.
"I" I start, trying to think of an excuse, like I got close to a hippogriff without its' permission, but she shushes me. Then she hugs me again and I don't know what to do.
"I'm sorry I wasn't there." She whispers into my chest, surprising me again.
"It's not your fault." I say as I hug her back.
"I should've been there for you but I didn't even notice."
"I didn't want anyone to." I whisper more to myself then to Rose, causing her to start crying again which will make me start crying.
"Rose you're going to make me start to cry." I say with a small laugh.
She pushes herself off of me and looks at my arms again. In a small voice she asks, "Can you please come talk to me next? Or to Albus? We're your friends and we want to be there for you." I nod.
"Thank you." She whispers. I nod again.
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"Did you finish your homework for the week?" Rose asks.
"Of course Rosie Posie, but I'm going to assume you haven't looked at it." I raise my eyebrow at her.
"You know me too well." She laughs. "I'll just do it later."
"I'm only one chapter into my book, do you want to read it with me?" I ask.
Rose nods so I slide over at the head of my bed to make room for her. She grabs one of my sweatshirts before she sits down. I start to read the book out loud. After two chapters I feel Rose fall on me. I put the book down and close my eyes, exhausted from crying and worrying. Before I know it I fall asleep.
