today was the first day that i have been happy in forever
i was really, truly, fucking happy
and i understand, why you said you need to focus on yourself, i really do, but why cant you be with me at the same time..?
you say you love me..
i say i love you..
but am i the only one who means it?
i can help you
i can help you
today was the first day that i was truly happy, and it was by your side
youre the only person that can make me perfectly happy
and i just want to be with you all the fucking time
today i was happy for the first time in what seems forever; i knew it wasnt real
i knew it wouldnt last.
the moment it happened i thought i was dreaming.
i thought it was a trick. a game. and i was fucking right. i hate being right.
its like im not fucking meant to be happy
WHY DID I HAVE TO FUCK UP SO BAD
IT FEELS LIKE THE END OF THE WORLD
IM SPINNING AND TURNING IN EVERY DIRECTION. I CANT SEE. I CANT THINK. EVERYTHING IS TOO FUCKING BLURRY.
but you held me in your arms today, and everything stood still
everything was standing still, i wasnt used to it. and i guess thats why i fell so hard, i lost my god damn balance.
all the sound around me was altered. i could finally think quietly again. all of the voices around me werent as loud and angry as before, all of the voices were quiet and soft. all the light seemed brighter. it seemed happy. and it was, until now. now theyre fucking dark and meaningless. all the colors were there again. they were shiny like they were brand new. now theyre too fucking bright and laughing in my face.
its the end of the world, my world
YOU ARE READING
storms and blood
Poesíathe death of which is unknown -figured out between the lines of within these pages
