Hatsune Miku the Vocaloid Book 1: Awaking

Rolling girl

Chapter fourteen:

Its been a full week since I started to cut myself. Still nobody notices. Im lonely, Im a very lonely girl. Some of the others ask whats wrong but I always choked out the words 'no problem' before running away to hide in the shadows again. Everyone knows theres something wrong with me, but no one knows what Im doing to myself.

I walked around in the 'park', aiming for nowhere, Im wasting time yet again. I hear scuffles behind me, I turn around and face all the Vocaloids. Some I know better than others.

"Why are you guys following me?" I asked.

"Miku we want to know, what the hell is wrong with you?" Dell demanded.

"Nothin-"

"Miku quite the bullshit." frowned Rin.

"What bullshit?"

"Your lying." Len said.

"Im not."

"Miku we only want to help, please tell us whats wrong." Teto pleaded.

"I dont need your help, theres nothing wrong." I said.

"Miku we just dont want to see you hurt." said Haku.

"If you cared enough like you say you do then you would be by my side!" I snapped at them. I walked past them to my bedroom and didnt leave my room for the rest of the day.

~time skipped~

I sneaked out if the Vocal Tower, and went to school. I didnt want them bothering me again. Walking down the sidewalk to school I felt like I was being watched, I turned around a few times but there was no one. Weird. I continued my way to school.

~time skipped~

One of the girls pushed me up against a wall. I fell down onto the ground, hard. I felt there fist punch me, along with their feet that were kicking me. Then it stopped at together, I heard them run as someone yelled stop. I quickly stumbled off the ground and ran away from the scene not stopping till I reached my hiding spot. My hiding spot had become a abandoned tree house. This is were I kept my first aid supplies and one of my razors. The other razor was always in my pocket.

I was scared out of my wits. Someone yelled stop to them. Someone interrupted their time to beat the shit out of me. This was bad, I now had a death wish. I pulled out my razor and cut my wrist again and again. My hands went to my bangs and I started to pull them. I was crying. My sides heaved from the gasps of air that I was fighting to get over my sobs. I got up from the floor and grabbed a rag and cleaned myself up before leaving.

Walking up to the front gate of the Vocal Tower, I slipped inside. I was just trying to get to my dorm without someone stopping me. I pulled open the 'park' doors and started to walk across. I saw no one, good. Then some one grabbed my arms. I turned around to face Dell. His face was twisted with sadness and anger. The rest of the Vocaloids followed out behind him. Len was behind me holding my shoulders.

"Miku why did you lie to us?" Dell asked.

"I-I didn't-"

"Miku! Dont lie to me dammit!" snapped Dell.

"Miku we saw those girls." Added Len.

My eyes widen, tears rolled down my face. "Please let me roll once more..." I whispered.

"Miku what does roll mean?" Len asked.

Dell grabbed one of my hands and pulled my sleeve down to my elbow, showing my wrist. I heard everyone gasp.

"Is this what you mean by roll?" he asked. I shook my head, more tears fell.

"Why would you do that?"

I looked up to see Mikuo, who asked. My heart broke, I didnt want him to see me like this.

"Im sorry.." I said. My knees buckled under my weight, I fell into something soft. Dell had caught me. I fell asleep in his arms.

~time skipped~

I woke up in my bed. I turned to see Dell looking at me. He was on Mikuo's bed. Len walked in and handed him a bottle of water and sat next to him. I could hear Mikuo and Haku talking. I sat up in bed.

"Miku your awake?" Said Mikuo.

"Whats going on?" I asked.

"Nothing for you to worry about," said Len. "Lay back down."

I ignored him. "Mikuo what were you and Haku saying?"

Mikuo looked at Haku then me. He came over and sat next to me on my bed. "Miku I know your going through a hard time, and I want to help you as much as I can like always, but my job is over in the other town and its hard for me to be here all the time."

"I know that Mikuo."

"Miku, I want to ask you if it would be ok if I left you under the care of Haku-Senpai? I would leave and go live back at our apartment but I would visit you as often as I can."

"Mikuo. Im fine with it, I dont want you to strain yourself."

Mikuo hugged me. "I knew you would say that." he whispered in my ear. He contained to hug me for a long time, and had said his good byes and left me with Haku, Dell, and Len.

"Alright Miku," Haku started. "Now your going to tell me what the hell is going on, and your gonna hand me all sharp objects that you own. Now!"

I explained the sacrifice that I did for my friends, and the hell that I went though since I went back to the school. Len and Dell were listening to me as they followed Haku's orders by cleaning the place out of anything that I could harm myself with. They locked everything in a gun cabinet that Haku brought in. After that Len and Dell carried in Haku's stuff. She said that her and Dell were moving in my dorm, so they could always watch over me.

"There we are done." puffed Len as he wiped sweat off of his forehead. He and Dell both fell on a bed and were breathing heavy. Haku walked in from the small kitchen.

"We have everything done now. Len you can leave now, thanks for your help."

"Your welcome," smiled Len. He walked out and waved to me before he left. I waved back.

"Now lets get ourselves all situated," Haku started to fix her bed and started to make herself feel at home. Dell just laid in bed exhausted. I got up from my bed and walked up to Haku.

"What is it Miku?"

"Here." I pulled my hand out of my pocket and placed the razor in her hands. Dell sat up in his bed and watched what I did. Haku just looked at it. "I dont want the pain anymore. I wont roll anymore."