Hatsune Miku the Vocaloid Book 1: Awaking

Therapy (part one)

Chapter twenty eight:

For the past three days, Ive been laying here on my bed. Watching the hours tick by, and watching Haku and Dell return and leave every so often. I was utterly alone. Worst of all I wanted to cut myself. Each time I was going to my secret spot where I hid my last razor, I stop myself. I dont want to give then another reason that I could be mentally ill. The longer it sat in my mind, the more I was thinking I might be. I talk to 'myself' which her name is Zatsune. I was almost raped and murdered, and I was forced to have big changes to my life. The they would add that I used to self harm. Maybe I am losing my mind? Looking out the window, I watched the sun rays change the sky into a pretty pink, purple, and orange. I could watch the sky forever, but I can't theres a knock at the door. I hear footsteps scuffle inside, but I don't move to see them. I still wanted to watch the sky out my window.

"Miss. Hatsune?" a young female voice called.

"Call me Miku........ dumb ass." I said in a pissed off mood.

"Alright Miku, why dont you sit up and let us see your pretty face." said another voice, the other voice was manly. I refused.

"Miku, why are you being stubborn?" asked the female.

"Because I dont need help, I just want to be left alone." I clutched my pillow in anger.

"Why do you want to be alone?"

"There's less to hurt me with."

"Do you always feel hurt?"

I didnt answer their question. If I did they would be here longer, I buried my face in the pillow. Not wanting to see them or hear them, I wanted them gone. Thinking that they got my warning, I raised my head a little to see them. The woman had really long blonde hair and golden eyes. The man had pink hair under a black skier hat, I couldnt see his eyes, his hair covered them.

"See now let's talk face to face." smiled the blonde.

"No!" I snapped.

"Lily lets leave her. She won't stop being a bitch." The pink boy slumped in his chair next to my bed. I sat up and grabbed the front of his shirt. It took them both by surprise.

"Im no bitch." I hissed at them. Letting him go, I fell back on my bed and starred at them with hatred.

"Yuma look at what you did, you got her all worked up!" Lily slapped him on the shoulder.

"Well shes talking now."

Lily rolled her eyes and looked at me. "So Miku could you tell us who Zatsune Miku is?" she asked innocently.

"She is me, but also not."

"What does that mean, could you explain this?" Yuma asked.

"Shes another 'person' inside me who helps me become better." I said. I was waiting for Zatsune to yell something inside my head, but she was silent.

"Ok. That makes more sense." Lily stared to write in her notebook. All of us were in silence.

"Why?"

"What?" they both said in unison.

"Why do I need therapy?"

"Well Miku, some people love you very much and they want you to feel better." Lily explained to me as if I was five.

"Like Haku, Dell, and Len?"

"Yes and many more." Replied Yuma.

I laid back down on my bed. Not wanting to listen to them anymore. They kept pestering me with questions, but I ignored them. I wanted to sleep and never wanted to get up, I felt this sadness built up inside me again. Burying my face back into my pillow, I felt tears run from my eyes. Screaming into my pillow for a few times, I felt a hand rub my back in comfort. It was very soothing to my pain, I wanted it to last forever. Soon after a few minutes I drifted off to sleep.

Waking up a few moment later I heard faint talking. I shyly opened my eyes slightly. Lily and Yuma were talking to Haku, Dell, Len, Rin, Gumi, Luka, and Gskupo. I was starting to listen to their conversation.

"So what happened?" Haku sounded nervous.

"Did you help her?" Len asked with his eyes wide.

"We just listen to her explain about Zatsune, and she didnt want us to help her." Lily read her notes.

"Did you diagnose her with anything? Or is she just being a little rebellious?" Gakupo said.

"Well....." Yuma started.

"Well what?" Dell asked sounding impatient.

"Miku has depression, and she might be suicidal." Lily said.

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The word echoed through my head........... Suicidal........