Dead rose 🥀 || E.D

Thirty five

(Alayas P.O.V)
It was 7:45 I was barley awake but I heard laughing coming from outside of Ethan's room, I pulled the covers up more wrapping them around my back, I moved my leg to see if Ethan was next to me but he wasn't, I waited a few minutes with my eyes closed to actually try to wake up. I rolled over on my back slowly opening my eyes, I looked up at his ceiling sighing I hated remembering that I can barley walk. I hate remembering that I have this stupid ass cast on. I hate remembering everything. It's like every waking moment I remember everything that happened to me.. all the words that were said to me... all the hands that touched me.. I felt gross. I couldn't handle it I was scared to tell Ethan how I felt because I didn't want him to worry but I know I need to.
"ETHAN" I yelled from his bed I felt a sharp pain in my stomach, I winced at the pain holding my stomach under my shirt. I started crying everything hurts so bad. I feel like a broken ripped rag doll that Ethans trying to fix.. His bedroom door opened causing my thoughts to get pushed away, I looked up with tears falling from eyes to realize it wasn't Ethan standing in the door frame, it was Grayson
" he went out to get you stuff for your stomach. What's wrong" he said walking over to the bed sitting next to me
" everything hurts Grayson. And I can't stop remembering.. I just want Ethan right now" I said resting my head on his shoulder, I felt his hands run across the top of my head giving me the chills
" you've never let me touch you like this" he said letting out a soft laugh, those words hurt to hear because I know I was pushing him away because I was afraid he was gonna end up hurting me or doing something to screw me over but when I woke up and saw him and Ethan there I knew he wouldn't do anything to hurt me same with his family
" I was scared to trust you and your family because of my past... but when I woke up and you were there with Ethan I knew you guys meant no harm and I'm sorry" I said starting to cry again, i let the tears fall onto his shirt as he played with my hair.
" don't cry it's okay I understand and so does Mom and dad" he said making shapes with his fingers on the top of my head. Just then Ethan's voice started to fill my head I heard the rustling of a plastic bag along with footsteps running up the stairs, I raised my head off of Grayson's shoulder and my eyes met Ethan's I couldn't help but let the gates of Niagara Falls open causing me to bawl, he dropped the bag running over to my side I let myself fall into his embrace
" what did you do" he scoffed at Grayson,
" he didn't do anything I woke up crying and he comforted me" I said into Ethan's chest, he rubbed my back kissing my head.
" thanks" he said to Grayson, grayson said you're welcome as he got up leaving the room, he closed the door behind him, me and Ethan stayed like this for a couple minutes until he spoke
" I know you're scared, I know you're hurting I know you can't stop thinking about what happened, but that ring on your finger means that I'm here no matter what and you can talk to me about anything baby" he said holding me closer playing with my hair, I raised my head so we were face to face he raised his hand gently placing it onto my cheeks wiping the tears away. I kissed his lips softly as he held onto my face, the kiss made everything disappear lighting fires in my body, he pulled away and I looked at him pouting
" I didn't want you to stop" I said laughing a little he smiled and looked down
" you need to shower and get ready for the day baby you have a doctors appointment for your arm" he said letting go of me getting off the bed walking back over to the plastic bag he dropped on the floor earlier
" also you need to start using this cream for your stomach after every shower, it'll make it heal faster so the pharmacist says" he said tossing the bag on the bed, I moved over to the edge of the bed slowly standing up, I felt a cold liquid run down my leg, I looked down
" shit" I said, Ethan came over to me and lifted up my shirt
" it's not my stomach" I said embarrassed, he let my shirt fall looking at me I hid my face so he couldn't see me almost cry of embarrassment
" it's fine baby come on let's go shower, I'll wash the sheets when we get out" he said holding my arm as we began to walk to his bathroom, I didn't bother wrapping up my arm it was to much work so I just held it above my head. I took my clothes off while Ethan turned the water on
" I'll be right here the whole time" he said as I stepped into the warm water holding my arm above my head, I let the water hit my back, I heard Ethan grab something out of the drawers, music started playing and I instantly started smiling he started playing 3005 by childish gambino, I grabbed the shampoo and started washing my hair

No matter what you say or what you do when I'm alone I'd rather be with you.
We sung together, I never wanted this feeling to end I hope it never does.
" I LOVE YOU" I yelled over the music I heard him laugh
" I LOVE YOU MORE" he said and the shower curtain wrapped around me, I let out a loud laugh and spun around in his arms covered by the shower curtain
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