Dead rose 🥀 || E.D

Thirty nine

Dear whoever reads this.. it's me Ethan. I'm 18 and I'm dating this girl named alaya rose. We've been dating for awhile now but her life has always been a mess.. a couple months ago she got taken away from me by her foster sister and there wasn't anything I could do about it cause of the courts and all this. We haven't spoken in 10 months that's almost half a year, since she's been gone I've barley been eating. I think about just ending my life cause I'd rather be dead then have to live without her. She was my light. She's my everything after everything we've been through I still love her with her with everything I have... her birthday is 3 days away and she will be 18.. rumors have been coming to me saying she's not alive anymore but I don't believe it... or do i... I'm scared but I'm writing this letter to let everyone know that I loved her, and I'll always love her.
Mom.
you're my whole world you brought me into this world and you do everything in your power to make me Grayson and Cameron happy at all times no matter how stressed or upset you are.
Dad.
I remember when I was really little you told me whenever I fall Inlove to fight no matter how hard it got always fight for what you love. And that's what I'm trying to do I'm trying so hard. But it's getting to hard without her I'm so broken... I need her
Grayson.
You're my best friend. I thank god for you everyday. You're there when I need a shoulder to cry on and when I need to talk shit about anyone. You know how to make me laugh when no one else can. You've been my safe heaven ever since alaya has been gone. I want you to know that you were the best thing to ever happen to me. I love you more then words can even describe.
Cam.
Hey sis, I'm sorry I was always pissing you off, I'm sorry I wasn't nice to you when we were little but god knows how proud I am of you for doing what you love. I'm proud to call you my sister I know times weren't always the best but we all had each others back.
Family.
I'm sorry but I'm not gonna be able to handle this for much longer. She brought me happiness she fixed the bad in me, and I fixed the bad in her. We did everything together we shared so many priceless moments but the one I'll remember for the rest of my life is the night she met the whole family and we slow danced while everyone watched, mom was crying while gray and cam sat there recording everything, I'll never forget the way she gently rested her head on my chest, the way her body swayed to the beat of the music, I'll never forget the way the fairy lights in the trees along with the different colored fabric made her eyes pop they made me smile brighter then life itself, I'll never forget the way she laughed after we kissed and everyone started clapping. I'll never forget holding her body so close to mine we could feel each others heart beats. I'm sorry I'm doing this but in 2 days I will be gone but I'll be okay I won't hurt anymore, I'll be with my angel.
I love you~ E