Will I Ever Matter To You?//Ianthony

Chapter 14: Before The Party

AUTHOR'S P.O.V.

For the entire week, Anthony visited Ian as much as he possibly could. Much to Anthony's disliking, David came in and checked on Ian. David checked in on Ian about three times. Anthony explained to the Smosh Games crew how Ian wouldn't be able to be in the next Game Bang and Gametime with Smosh, due to being in the hospital. They also called off the shoot for Friday's video. But, they planned to get back on track with Ian leaving the hospital. Of which they did. Everything got back on track. Anthony told only Mari about what happened. David only knows because he went to the hospital to see why Ian was there. Otherwise, the rest of them have no idea why he wasn't there for Game Bang. Now, I could end the story right here, right now. I could let your imagination take over what happens after that. But, I'm not going to, because there is still a lot of unresolved issues here. Anthony loving Ian, and Ian loving Anthony. Yet neither of them know that who they love, loves them back. Not to mention, David Moss (Lasercorn) who also loves Ian. Ian still has no idea that Anthony and David love him. Which is surprising, considering that Anthony blushes if he even sees Ian. What's even more obvious is Anthony's face turns completely red whenever they touch. Ian is just blaming his imagination though. Also, I need to add that Ian is still making himself throw up but, no one knows. No one is even suspecting that he is though, because Ian is eating more now. I guess that's where the next chapter in this story begins. Hmm, where should I start? How about....a month after Ian leaves the hospital. I guess we'll start with his point of view then...

IAN'S P.O.V.

Where the hell is it? I knew it was right here, behind my bed. Where the fuck could it be? Did I place it somewhere else? No. I hid it exactly right here. The note. One of the many notes that I have wanted to give to Anthony for the longest time. But, I can't just grow a pair and give it to him. Well I guess I don't have a time limit anymore, with Anthony not being engaged to Kalel anymore. But I still need it. Right here. Right now. It's going to be my last note in this world. My suicide note, you might call it. I was hoping just to stick it in my pocket and then jump off that bridge....but now I can't find it! The one thing I need. I'm going to do it right after Joshua's party, that he's throwing at his house. That way, no one will come looking for me. They'll just assume that I was drunk so someone drove me home. But that's not the case. I'll be dead by the time they come looking for me. What am I thinking? No one's gonna come looking for me. Who would possibly care? Wait a second. Completely off topic but...what if, when I was in the hospital, Anthony found it? Please let that not be the case. I need to ask him about it.

ANTHONY'S P.O.V.

Ian comes out of his room and sits on the couch, right next to me. I can feel my cheeks go a slight pink. "Hey," Ian starts a conversation. "Hi," I reply, trying to keep my eyes on the screen in front of me. "Excited for Joven's party?" I ask. "Yeah...." Ian answers, trailing off. He doesn't seem too happy/excited about the party....hmm..."Ian, you alright man?" I ask. Ian nods. "Hey um, have you found anything, of mine recently?" He asks, out of the blue. Wait....is he talking about...the note? The note I want to read so badly, but I know I shouldn't? Shit! I think it's still in my room. "Hello?" Ian says, waving his hand in front of my face, frantically. "No," I lie. I can't let him know I was looking through his stuff, the night I realized I have always loved him. "Alright..." Ian replies, getting off of the couch. "I'm gonna go get ready for the party then," He says. "What are you looking for?" I ask. "Nevermind that. I'll just make a new one....I-I mean, get a new one," Ian answers, leaving the room quickly. That was...strange. Oh well. I bet it's nothing.