Will I Ever Matter To You?//Ianthony

Chapter 23: Who Knows?

IAN'S P.O.V.

I sit down on the couch, hoping Anthony will come over here soon. I really need to talk to him. There's a couple of things I need to say. It's about our relationship. Yes, I am the happiest I've ever been. (Well...for me anyways...)  But...we never talked about anyone else. As in, like, our parents, friends...and the fans! I don't know, but we should talk about that. I don't think I'm ready to come out to anyone yet but I don't know what Anthony's thinking. Anthony emerges from the hallway and sits down next to me. He has sort of a....unreadable expression on his face. Deep in thought maybe? I have no clue. "Hey umm...Anthony? So, umm, do you mind if we don't tell anyone abou our relationship?" I ask, like it's an ordinary thing.  Anthony looks at me and smiles sincerely.

AUTHOR'S P.O.V.

"Of course I don't mind," Anthony replies. Now he has a lot on his mind. Anthony's now has many questions buzzing around his mind. What would his parents think? Is Ian truly okay? Would the fans accept them? Would their own friends accept them? Sure, he knew that David would accept them being gay, but being together? Yeah, right. Anthony Padilla is the only one that knows David Moss loves Ian Hecox. Ian would have most likely figured that out if he didn't hate himself so much to the point that he eliminated the possibility. It worries Anthony that some day, David is going to confess his love for Ian and he'll be replaced. All of that...and more, is buzzing around Anthony's mind currently. 

IAN'S P.O.V.

"What's on the agenda today?" Anthony asks, plainly. I think for a moment. I think there was something we were suppose to do today...Oh wait! I got it!  "Umm..I think we have to film a Lunchtime with Smosh and then edit it," I answer, about 70% sure about my answer. "But...this morning we don't have anything plan-" I look over at the time. 11:23. It's not even morning. "Nevermind." I fake smile at him. You are probably confused. Well, let's just say that I've been getting certain texts from a certain someone. They've been telling me the truth, and that kills me."Well, let's do it! I'll go get dressed and you can go grab the camera," Anthony grins. He kisses my cheek and then skips off happily to his room. What's up with him? He seems extremely happy for some reason. Maybe it's just a happy day for him....Who knows?

ANTHONY'S P.O.V.

I shut the door behind me, trying my best not to slam it shut.That was damn close...I almost broke down in front of Ian. I bite my bottom lip to try and hold back the tears that are starting to form in my eyes. That fake smile. It can literally tear my heart apart. One fake smile. That's all it takes for me I guess. Call me a pussy, I don't fucking care. Ian isn't happy. Ian doesn't like himself and who knows? It could be my fault. I blink away the tears and quickly put on my clothes. I walk out into the living room where Ian is waiting with the camera. "Ready?" I ask him. "Ready," He replies. Ian turns on the camera. "Hey guys! Welcome to another episode of Lunchtime with Smosh!" He exclaims, happily. But, is he actually? I never really know...Well, at least I'm more aware of it now than I use to be. "Today we're gonna get..." I pause, not knowing what we're gonna get. We never really know where we are going, we just blurt out some random food place. "Chinese food!" Ian finishes my sentence. I love it when we do Lunchtime...but...I have a feeling. I have a feeling that today's Lunchtime won't be as enjoyable as it was for me last time. Because...now I'm aware. Now, I'm aware if Ian is happy. After I saw him when he was truly happy, I usually know when he isn't. But.... I could be wrong...but I could still be right....who knows?

(A/N) I'm trying to wrap this story up because I just started the sequel to my other Ianthony story. So, I'm sorry if I end up spamming you guys :3 Have an awesome day magic mummies!