Will I Ever Matter To You?//Ianthony

Chapter 18: The Bridge

IAN'S P.O.V. 

After the long (and quiet, I may add) walk, I'm finally here. I'm at the bridge. My death bridge. I look at all of the lights in front of me. It's beautiful. I couldn't have picked a better place to die. When Anthony finds that note, I'll be dead. It's weird thinking about it. But....there's one question in mind. Will he even care? Will he just throw the note in the garbage and pretend none of this ever happened? Most likely... But he had a right to know that I love him. Even if he'll never love me back. Who would? That's  a really good question....Who in their right mind would love someone like me? 

ANTHONY'S P.O.V.

Questions. Questions are the only thing buzzing around in my mind. Which bridge is Ian at? Did he jump? Was this all a prank? No...the way the letter was written...it was too sincere and serious to be a prank. My face is completely blank, with tears still falling. What if he's already dead? No, I can't think about that. I don't know what I'd do without him... If he's dead...I'll swear...I'll kill myself. I can't live without him in my life. I'm almost there! Hopefully I got the right bridge. I look over to the right. No one's there. I look over to my left....there's a man standing there. I'm not sure if it's Ian...but I need to talk to him either way. Especially if it's Ian. Right now.

IAN'S P.O.V.

"Ian?" I hear a farmiliar voice say. I turn around. "Anthony?!?" I exclaim. "What are you doing here?" I ask. "Ian....please," Anthony's voice is cracking and his eyes are full of tears. "Please don't jump." Why...why the fuck would he care? That's....that's just it. He doesn't care. He just doesn't want to be responsible for me doing this. "Anthony. Get out of here," I tell him sternly. "Then you won't have to face anyone and tell them that you were here when I jumped. You won't have to be held responsible. That's all your really scared of isn't it!" I say, my voice starting to crack due to tears now in my eyes. "Please just go...just live your life." "Ian-" "Don't fucking say anything." "Please just hear me ou-" "Anthony, just go!" I scream. "Dammit Ian! Can you just listen to me?" Anthony screams back. He walks over to the ledge, right next to me. "I'm listening," I tell him, not understandingly, or sternly, more of an emotionless voice. "Ian....if you jump. I swear. I'm gonna jump too," Anthony tells me.

AUTHOR'S P.O.V.

Ian is extremely confused. Why would he ever care about me? He thought. "Anthony, don't. You have your entire life ahead of you." "So do you!" Anthony argues. "Not really!" Ian argues as well. "You're amazing. You have the perfect look and personality. You can get the bride of your dreams in a heartbeat. Everyone loves you. Even ask the smoshers! Ian or Anthony? They'll always pick Anthony. Because what you don't see Anthony is that I'm the opposite! I have the worst look and personality. I drive away any girl (and guy) I see with my face. What's even worse is that I love you! I have to love someone who's fucking perfect and not even gay! Everyday I would always ask myself Will I ever matter to you, Anthony? And the answer would always be no! No one gives a fuck about me so please just let me jump!"

ANTHONY'S P.O.V.

"Ian, please listen to me." How the hell could he think that? "I'm not letting you jump. Because you don't understand.  The only one who thinks all those things is you. Smosh wouldn't be smosh without you. You're fucking beautiful and you-...what's that question that you always ask yourself?" I ask, even though I know the answer. I take a step towards Ian. "My question was....will I ever matter to you?"  Ian faces me. He's blushing crazily while his eyes are still full of tears. But, they're not tears of sorrow. They are tears of joy. I can tell because of the soft smile on his face. I get closer to him. "My answer is," I get even closer to him, to the point where our chests are almost grazing against eachother. Ian's face is completely red, even though I am blushing as well, I'm not blushing as much as Ian. "Always."

AUTHOR'S P.O.V.

Anthony leans down and softly presses his lips against Ian's. Ian's eyes widen in surprise but then lets them flutter shut when he notices that Anthony's eyes are closed. The kiss is absolutely perfect. Nothing too heated....nothing too short. It's sweet. Ian snakes his arms around Anthony's neck while Anthony puts his hands on Ian's hips. Ian and Anthony's hearts are fluttering while their stomachs have butterflies. Anthony pulls away for a second. Ian instantly misses Anthony's lips on his. "I love you Ian Andrew Hecox," He says before kissing Ian again. "I love you too," Ian replies. Anthony truly loves me back. Ian thought to himself. Little did he know, Anthony was thinking the exact same thing. (Except  instead of thinking about Anthony he was thinking about Ian....but you probably got that).They both pull away and rest their foreheads against eachothers. The question that had always been unanswered was finally answered by Anthony Padilla himself.

Will I ever matter to you?

Always.

(A/N) OMG I'M SOOO CHEESEY. Buuuuut here it is! I hope you enjoyed this chapter as much as I did...cause' dis is mah favaorite chaptah. (I am NEVER saying that again) Anyways, I wanted to tell you all thank you for reading so far! By the way, this is NOT the end!  There's still two more chapters to come. I DON'T WANT IT TO END. But sadly all things have an end. ON A NOT SO DEPRESSING NOTE....5 MORE DAYS UNTIL THE FIRST CHAPTER OF "YouTube" Comes out! (of the closet. Of which I am very supportive). If you don't know what it is...."YouTube" Is a sequel to my Ianthony story "High School". It's gonna be amazing! So go and check out the trailer I made for it :3 Goodbye for now magic mummies! (I'm gonna start calling you guys that because why not)