Will I Ever Matter To You?//Ianthony

Chapter 22: More Realization

ANTHONY'S P.O.V.

Anger rushes through me at that sentence. "What did it say?" I ask. Please don't tell me that David said something about last night... "He was apologizing for last night...do I forgive him? Like he's a good friend and all...but he almost raped me last night!" Ian exclaims. "What do I do?"  Without thinking, I mumble "Fuck no..." Luckily, Ian didn't hear me, because he asks "What was that?" "I said....I don't think you should," I cover it up. Ian looks down at his phone. "I'll just reply to him later." That was hella close... Ian lays down with his head on my lap. "Do you mind?" He asks. I run my hand through his hair and say "Not at all."

-HOURS LATER-

IAN'S P.O.V. 

(A/N) I would just like to say that the next to P.O.V.S (was that gramatically correct?) is extremely fluffy and completely unecessary (You: So... basically most of your chapters) SHUT UP 

After that, we just basically spent the rest of the day watching movies and cuddling. Even though it doesn't sound like much...it was really freaking fun. Right now, we're just walking to bed. We both stop at where our bedrooms are. Do we sleep together again? Or......well..does Anthony want to? I mean, I would love to sleep with him again but...we did cuddle through all of the movies. Judging by the look on Anthony's face...I'm assuming he's not sure what to do either. You know what, I'll just go and sleep in my room. I'll make it less awkward for the both of us. "Goodnight Anthony," I kiss him on the cheek. I walk into my room. "Goodnight Ian," He replies, sounding...disappointed? What? I must be imagining things again. Anthony is still in front of the two bedrooms. "I mean...it's really your decision...but do you wanna sleep together again?" I say, without thinking first. Anthony's face lights up a bit and he nods. I smile and grab his hand. We both get under the covers. "One pillow or two?" I ask. "It doesn't matter to me," Anthony replies. "Will I ever matter to you Anthony?" I ask. Anthony puts one arm around me and presses his chest against my back, so we're basically spooning. "Always." I giggle. "So is that our thing now?" I ask. "I do believe it is," Anthony says with a british accent. I smile as I quickly drift off to sleep.

ANTHONY'S P.O.V.

I look at Ian. He's already asleep with a sleepy smile on his face. Adorable. "Always..." I repeat before falling asleep.

-THE NEXT MORNING-

My eyes flicker open to see Ian's bed. But not Ian. Dammit, he's always up before me. "Ian?" I call out. No response. "Ian," I call out, louder. "Yeah?" A very farmiliar voice calls back. "Where are ya?" I ask. "I'm in the bathroom...brushing my teeth," He answers. I get out of bed slowly and walk down the hallway. The bathroom door is open and Ian's in there. I peek in a bit. The water is running, but Ian isn't brushing his teeth. He's just looking at himself in the mirror, his shirt up. No...Ian can't...does he still think that he's not good enough? Ian sighs (somewhat quietly), sounding disappointed and then puts his shirt back down. He turns off the running water. That's all the proof I need. He still hates himself....and that breaks my heart so goddamn much. I knock on the side of the wall and then walk into his view. "Good morning," I say, smiling, despite of what I just witnessed. "Morning," Ian smiles back but...it seems a bit...different than yesterday. I mean it looks a bit more...sad. Fake, even. Wait....haven't I seen him smile like that before? I can't remember when...but he did at one point. Wait, now that I think about it...he use to smile like that all the time. How the hell could I be so stupid? Ian faked so many smiles before yesterday and I fell for every single one of them. Every. Single. Fucking. One. I can't believe how stupid I actually am. Ian walks out of the bathroom and into the living room, but I just lean against the hallway wall, thinking everything over. I realize everything now...and all I needed was one smile. One fake smile.

(A/N) OMG TWO CHAPTERS IN ONE DAY. WHAT THE HELL. IT'S BEEN FOREVER SINCE THAT HAPPENED. Anyways, thanks for reading this chapter magic mummies. ^-^