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Jhope (Jhope x Sad reader)

A/N: Before I start, Can we all take a moment to admire how beautiful and perfect our hope, joy and sunshine, Jhope looks in this picture (well in every picture really)! This man can sing, dance, rap, light up any room, make anyone happy, and produce outstanding music! I frickidy frackidy love this multitalented man!! Jhooooooooope! 💞💞💞💞

⚠️ By the way, this might trigger some readers... who are easily triggered by things like suicide. If you are, I recommend you don't read this. ⚠️

Also there's swears 😝

~Hobi p.o.v~

I was sitting on the couch playing video games and eating chips, when one of my roommates walked in.

"Hey Y/N." I glanced up at her giving her a smile.

I lived in a off-campus apartment with three other roomies who I had become quite close with. My other two roommates were dating so Y/N were the only single ones.

Usually she'd give me a smile and ask how my day was, but today she simply stepped out of her shoes and quickly made her way to her room, completely ignoring me.

No smile, no eye contact, no nothing.

'She must have had a bad day...' I thought.

I heard her slam her door and I jumped slightly. I would go talk to her but if I were her, I'd prefer to be left alone, and reach out to someone when I was ready.

Y/N was never quite a loud person. Whenever I'd try and talk to her, I'd always find her locked up in her room with her nose in a book. But when I would talk to her, she'd give me her full attention, closing her book and turning to me with a smile on her face.

To be honest I felt a little awkward because she'd just stop everything to look at me, rarely anyone did that. She made me feel special, like I was actually worth someone's attention.

After resuming my game I heard music coming from down the hall. Y/N and I were the only ones home, so it was coming from her room. She'd rarely ever play music in her room, especially this loud.

At first you played 'Only Then' by Roy Kim, and then 'If you love her' by SHINee, both songs having to do with relationships...

"If you love her, if you want her~"

'Dang... what's going on with Y/N...' I thought pausing my game. I rose from the couch and quietly made my way to her room.

"If you love her, if you need her~"

If it wasn't for me leaning my head on her door, I wouldn't have been able to hear the little faint sobs and sniffles in the background.

She was crying.

*~Y/N's point of view~*

Why did all bad things have to happen to me?

Why couldn't I just die?

I was already dying of humiliation and embarrassment..

Death right now didn't seem like a bad idea.

I choked out a sob and buried my face deeper into my pillow, trying to cover up the noise.

No one cared about my feelings, let alone my existence, why go on?

I turned my head to the side, sniffling and blinking away hot tears.