Vlog Squad {Dom DeAngelis}

Lonely Christmas

~I tell you I love you but I don't really mean it, cause after this Christmas I'm leaving you~

The tour bus pulls up at the vlog house around one am. We all stumble out, our bags in tow. We enter the house and everyone falls asleep somewhere.

I wake the next morning on the couch with every part of my body aching.

I smell food in the kitchen and I stand. I wrap a blanket around me and walk into the kitchen sluggishly.

There are food containers everywhere. Scott and Todd are drinking coffee and talking.

"Did you guys order breakfast?" I ask, rubbing my eyes.

"Oh, yeah. Can you wake everyone?" Todd asks.

I nod. I go find everyone and tell them we have breakfast. Everyone joins us in the kitchen, looking like zombies.

We fill our plates with pancakes, eggs, bacon, sausage, and hash browns. I pour mimosas for everyone and raise my glass in a toast.

"To the end of the tour. I wouldn't trade you guys for anything." I smile.

We toast and sip our drinks. 

A couple hours later, I am finally back home. I crash in my bed, completely worn out from the past three months.

I hear a knock on my door and I groan. I go to open the door and there is Dom, holding flowers.

My heart melts. I forget that I should be pissed at him and I throw my arms around him. "I love you," I whisper.

"I love you," Dom says. He hands me the flowers and I set them in a vase. "How was the tour?" He asks.

"Exhausting." I sigh. "I've slept all day. I could go the rest of my life without ever going on tour again, and I would be completely fine."

Dom laughs. "Tour is definitely exhausting, but it's so worth it meeting all the fans." 

"I'm just glad I'm back here with you now." I wrap my arms around him again. 

"I missed you." He whispers into my hair.

We cuddle on the couch for a long time.

"Do you want to go buy a Christmas tree and decorate it?" I ask randomly.

"Right now?" He asks; I nod. "Let's go to Target."

We head to Target and buy a small tree. We get lots of ornaments and I even buy two stockings for us.

"I'm glad I get to spend Christmas with you," I say as we check out.

Dom kisses me before I pay for the stuff. We head back to my place and spend the rest of the day setting up Christmas stuff.

The next two weeks until Christmas fly by. My mind keeps going back to Dom cheating while I was on tour. I want to confront him, but Christmas is only three days away.

We buy matching onesies for the Instagram pics on Christmas morning. We go out with both of our friend groups three days before Christmas. We go to the vlog house for Christmas Eve breakfast.

I buy Dom a pair of Gucci slides that I know he doesn't own. I think he'll like them. I wrap them when I have alone time and set them under the tree.

Dom sleeps over. On Christmas, I wake him and we dress in our onesies. We take lots of cute pictures in front of the tree. I post one of me kissing his cheek on Instagram with the caption 'If kisses were snowflakes, I'd send you a blizzard' with kissing emojis and snowflake emojis. 

We open presents together. Dom immediately puts on his slides and I grin. I open my present and I feel tears pricking my eyes. He bought me a silver Cartier bracelet. 

"Dom, this is... insane." I gasp.

"You deserve the best things, Ally." He grins sheepishly.

I throw my arms around him and slip on the bracelet. I can't confront him now.

As we get closer to New Years, I feel Dom growing distant again. A week after Christmas, I invite him over. 

He sits on my couch and I face him. "We need to talk." I bite my lip. I pull up the video from Kian and show Dom. "What is this?"

"When is that from?" He asks. "Nearly two months ago? Ally, what the hell?"

"You cheated on me, Dom. I thought I would come back and everything would be fine. But you've been acting weird lately." I sigh.

"It just happened the one time!" Dom exclaims.

"That's not an excuse, Dom. It happened once, it can happen again. I love you so much, but I can't be with someone who would cheat on me the first chance they get." I shake my head.

"She didn't mean anything. You were on tour." Dom laughs harshly.

"Just because I was on tour doesn't mean we weren't together." I snap. "We need to break up."

"No, we don't." Dom shakes his head.

"Yes, we do. I don't know if I can trust you anymore. I can't be with you if I can't trust you. Please, Dom. We need to break up."

"Fine." Dom snaps, standing. "I don't need this anyway." He storms out, slamming the door behind him.

I fiddle with the bracelet around my wrist, hating everything that just happened. 

I text David and tell him I can't come to work for a few days. I mope in bed for a long time before I go on Instagram. I don't delete my pics with Dom; that's petty and childish. I do, however, go on my story and rant. 

"Hey guys, I don't think it's fair to hide something from you especially since you'll find out eventually. Earlier today, Dom and I broke up. This being said, please don't send either of us hate. We are both adults and things just went wrong. I still love him very much, but we just can't be together right now. I love all of you. I didn't want to share this but I know it's not fair to not be honest with you guys. I might not post a video this week, but I'll keep you guys updated. Much love."

I get a call from Gaven two minutes later. 

"Hello?" I say weakly.

"Bitch, what the hell? I spent all that time getting you with Dom and it's over?" He screeches.

"He cheated on me, Gav." I sigh.

"Oh. Fuck him, then." Gaven laughs. "Seriously, how are you?"

"Terrible. I love him so much. But I can't date a cheater." I cough. "I need to get away from here. Just for a few days."

"Come to New York. Like, seriously, get on a plane right now." Gav says.

"As much as I want to, I can't do that. I haven't even been home for a month." I sigh.

"Aw, you're no fun." Gav pouts.

I laugh. "Thanks, Gav." I shake my head. "I gotta go. I'll talk to you later."

Throughout the rest of the day, I get texts from all the vlog squad. My favorite is one from Heath, saying, 'I'll still fuck him up if I need to bby.'

I laugh and send him a quick 'thanks, but no thanks' before I fall asleep.

After the day I had, I just want to sleep forever.