Challenged

Chapter Twelve

Adeline's P.O.V.

I slowly break the kiss and take a step back looking at him.

"You can't just do that. I'm tired of getting my feelings hurt." I speak and look at the ground.

"Adeline, I'm the one who was hurt last. You slept with one of my friends!" He yelled at me.

"The only reason I ever went to him was because you we're all over that girl at the party!!" I yelled back.

It's hard to believe the party was literally earlier this week. It feels like it's been years.

"After all I was only temporary right?" I scoff at him.

"Adeline I've never done this before! I've never been with a girl consecutively!" He shouts back.

I shake me head and turn away.

"Tell me now, do you even want anything with me? Do you feel anything for me?" I questioned.

"I've never had feelings for any one Adeline Grace. You're the first person I let close." He responds quietly.

"First advice, when you like being around someone and feel something for them, you don't usually go around with other girls or check others out infront of the perosn you like." I look him in the eyes.

It's silent for a while. All you hear is our breathing. I walk into his room and grab my bags. I walk back in the living room and drop my bags.

"I'll be back in the morning. If you need anything call me." I say and search for my keys.

"Where are you going?" He asked softly.

I look at him. I look at his face and see something in his eyes that I haven't seen before. Hurt.

"To my apartment. I can't be here if-" I get interrupted by him speaking.

"If you leave, if you walk out that door, don't bother coming back. If you leave, I don't want to see you again. I'm not gonna deal with losing you twice, look what happened to both of us the first time you left. I get in an accident going back to you and you get hurt by that pathetic asshole." He speaks and his voice is shaky, but loud.

"Ashton, how is this fair to me? How is it fair that I sit here and my feelings and wanting for you grow more and more by the second, while you sit here fine." I respond.

"I told you I wanted you and I meant it. I may not know exactly what I want, but what I do know is I want you. I want you here in this apartment with me. I want to spend all my free time with you. I also know that I can't stand any the thought of any other guy being around you or having his hands on you, it bothers me and I don't want it." He stepped a little closer to me.

"What are you saying Ash?" I looked deeply into his eyes.

"I'm saying that I want to figure this out with you. I don't know how to do any of this, but I want to learn for you." He steps even closer.

"So what are we?" I ask quietly not breaking eye contact with him.

"We can figure that out as we go, but right now I want you." He says and holds my face to bring me into a kiss.

I kissed him back and rest my hands on his sides. He deepens the kisses and walks foward causing me to walk back.

Before I know it, I fall back onto his bed and he groans as he falls gently on me.

"Ashton we don't have to do this. Your still hurt we don't want any wounds reopening or anything." I speak a little out of breath from the kiss.

He looked at me and sighed.

"I know, I know. I guess this is good for us in a way. We actually talk and know each other more so we you know, get somewhere." He says a bit sadly.

"Why do you sound so down about the idea?" I question.

"I'm not." He kisses my lips softly.

I crawl to the head of the bed and push down the blankets. I wait for Ashton to come beside me before I lay down and pull the blankets over our bodies.

He pulls me gently into his embrace and wraps his arm around my waist and I trace circles on his chest.

"Ash?" I call quietly just incase he's asleep.

"Yes?" He replies just as quiet.

"Can we talk about something and you won't get upset?" I ask.

"I can try." He says, but his body reacts differently as I feel it stiffen under my hand on his chest.

"Wh-why did Calum make me feel so...so." I try to form the words but he gets what I'm talking about.

"I honestly have no idea. Adeline Grace you are the best I've ever been with and I can tell you, you are like no other. Calum, he's...he's a jerk when it comes to that and girls and friends." He sighed.

"And friends?" I ask confused.

"He screws over people Adeline, he really does. He's slept with almost all his friends girls, and I just happened to be a victim to add on his list." He ran his finger tips up and down my arm.

"How long has he done this for?" I question.

"He's done this since before I met him. I think I was always scared it'd happen to me that I never really wanted to be with someone. He'd make these plans before hand and the dates everything would happen, the whole situation was dick. Then I saw the effect it had on our friends, how hurt they were not only by their lady, but by Calum, I saw and I didn't ever want to go through that." He finished speaking and all I could do was look down.

"The night of the first party I went to, when I went up to you, and Calum told you he had me on his lap and touched me, is that why you got mad?" I look back up to his to see his jaw tense.

He nods.

I simply kisses his jaw and nuzzled my head into his neck.

"I'm so sorry Ashton, I didn't know that's what it'd be." I whisper.

He slides his hand to my lower back and rest it there.

There's silence. Nothing but silence.

The night is ended with a deeper understanding to things, to why he was hurt by my actions.

All I want to do is take it back, make things better, but I can't.

In a way, things are better this way, because I don't know if I'd be back in Ashton's arms right now and that's the only place I want to be.