Making it Home (Home book 2)

Part 16

I watch as Tyler shakes his head and bends down kissing my head, before turning and heading for our room.  "Ty..."  I say worried that I upset him.  He just walks into our room and pulls the door behind him.  I lean my head back and swallow hard, before walking down the hall and stopping in front of the nursery.  I look to the door to the bedroom before slipping into the nursery and closing the door behind me.  I sit against the wall across from the two cribs and stare ahead of me trying to hold in my emotions.  "Your daddies hurting and I don't know how to help him.  He's so freaking stubborn and won't let me do anything."  I shake my head and run my fingers through the mass of my tangled hair.  "I need him to be okay you two.  Losing my babies was hard enough and I'm still not okay.  I can't lose him too."  I wipe under my eyes and stand up slipping back out of the room and into the hallway.  I walk to our bedroom and see Tyler stretched out across the bed, the stress lines usually on his face gone as he sleeps.  I smile a bit seeing how peaceful he is and turn back to the living room, where I flop down on the couch and pull the blanket from the back over myself slowly allowing myself to slip into a restless sleep.  

I blink awake and see Tyler standing above me, with a frown on his face.  I sit up and rub my lower back watching him.  "Yes, Ty?"  His frown deepens and sits next to me pulling me closer to him, while his thumbs press gently into the muscles of my lower back.  

"You slept out here last night."  He says, and I flinch as he hits a particularly sore spot.  "You should have come to bed Dee."

I shrug and stand up walking towards the bedroom.  "It's fine Ty.  I just didn't want to annoy you more than I already did."  I slide open the closet doors and start flipping through the clothes when I feel a hand on my shoulder and am pulled back.  

"Dee.  I wasn't annoyed with you honey."  He says looking hard at my face.  

I raise my eyebrow and stare at him.  "Yeah Ty you were.  You made that clear, I'm not allowed to worry about you or try to help.  But you can be overly worried about me for no reason."  I see his body tense and his expression turn to frustration.  

"I already said I'm fine Dee.  You don't need to worry."  I cross my arms and lean against the wall.  "I worry about you because the whole time I was gone, I wasn't here to protect you and help you."  His voice cracks as he steps forward and presses his forehead against mine.  "I never got to meet our babies.  You had to hurt on your own and I can't forgive myself for that.  I'm going to worry darlin'.  I love you."  

I turn away trying to return to my task of looking for clean clothes.  I turn around and face Tyler, throwing my hands in the air.  "Is that your way of saying I don't love you?  Because, damn it Tyler I do love you.  So freaking much.  I want to help you and I'm going to worry it's part of being me."  I bite my lip and wrap my arms around myself turning back to the closet.  "I do love you Tyler.  You can't tell me not to worry, you can't ask me to not want to help.  It's my job, and you're my fiance.  I hate seeing you hurting."  Grabbing a random shirt and a pair of jeans I try to push past him and walk to the adjoining bathroom but feel his strong arms wrap around me and fall against his warm chest.  "Ty...."  I feel my voice catch in my throat as I try to pull myself out of his hold. 

He holds me tighter against him and slides down the wall to the floor, pulling me with him.  "I don't doubt that Dee.  I know you love me.  I'm not trying to upset you honey, I really am okay."  I shake my head at him,  he sighs and presses his lips against my temple.  "Relax Dee.  I've been riding that's helping, so stop stressing about me."

I crane my neck to look see him and scowl.  "Going from nothing to long rides isn't really helping.  You need to take it slow Ty."  He sighs and starts to move from under me.  "Please, just listen.  I know you want to go right back where you used to be.  That's great hon, but you have to do it right."

"I can already walk fine Lydia, I'm already starting back at everything that I need to do."  He says, his voice filled with tension.

I reach up and turn his face to me.  Pressing my lips to his I gently run my my fingers through his growing hair.  "I know that Ty.  You really are doing great.  I'm just worried that you're doing to much at once."  I shift so I'm sitting next to him, "I can tell these last few days, you've been sore.  Just relax for a while please Ty.  We can spend the day watching movies and doing nothing."

I watch him and can see him thinking.  "I have a better idea."  I raise my brow at him, waiting.  "How about we spend all day in bed and doing something awesome."  I lean my head on his shoulder and smile.  

"You're incorrigible,"  I tell him as I kiss the hallow behind his ear.  He lets out a low groan and pulls me back to him as he stands.  

"We definitely aren't leaving this room."  He says his voice deeper than normal, as he picks me up, my legs wrapping around him, as he leads us to the bed.

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