One Direction is Adopting Me?

Chapter eighteen

I woke up the next morning with a song stuck in my head.

I can make the stars dance, light up the moon

I can make the stars dance, if you want me too

the sky is over there, so meet me under there

I can make the stars dance, dance, dance, for you

if you haven't guessed, it's stars dance by Selena Gomez.

I heard my name being called. I sat up and walked out of the sleeping quarters. Perrie was in the small kitchen. jade was helping her and Jesy and Leigh-Ann were watching the Telly. I sat next to Jesy and watched celebrity juice.

it was the episode little mix was on. Keith Lemon just handed Perrie a Dildo to hit an Irish guy on the head with.

"Breakfast," jade said. we got up. I started thinking about what those people said. I just sat there and poked the French toast.

"are you okay?" Perrie asked. I nodded abd put some of the French toast in my mouth. I ate all of the Toast. I excused my self abd went to the bathroom.

I looked in the mirror. I was ugly. I was fat. I grabbed my tooth brush abd leaned over the toilet. I pulled my hair back and put one end of the brush down my throat. I let my breakfast come up. I put the tooth brush under the counter and grabbed a clean one to brush my teeth with.

this went on for a few days. we hadn't started with the concerts yet. just meet and greets or signings or interviews. I would eat, throw it up, repeat. I know the girls suspect something. they sit and make me eat. but they don't know I get it out. I still look through the hate. it just gets worse.

I got up from the couch to use the bathroom. I did my business and started washing my hands. I sprayed water on my face. I looked in the mirror and saw the razor on the rim. I tried to resist the urge to grab it, but it was useless. I walked over, grabbed the razor. I sat on the counter, put my wrist over the sink, put the cool metal to my skin, and sliced. I did it about 8 times. four times on each wrist.

for being ugly

for being fat

for being a slut

for being a whore

for being a bitch

for not getting the boy I really like

for the boys and girls hating me

for being alive.

one reason for each slice. I cleaned the cuts and pulled my sleeves down. I walked out of the bathroom and onto the couch. the girls were at an interview. the boys were in their bus waiting for the girls.

I decided to put The Notebook in and watch it. I grabbed a blanket and sat down. the movie started playing and I burst into tears right as the first preview started. I put the movie in so if anyone came in, they would see the movie and not suspect anything. I pressed play and it started. there was the sound of an opening door right at the sad part. I felt three people plop down next to me. it was Eli, Austin, and Brandon. I layed my head on Brandon's shoulder and let all of my feelings out.

I heard the click of the TV being turned off. I felt a arms on my knee and another around my shoulder.

"what's wrong?" Brandon asked. I thought of an excuse.

"the movie was so sad," I said. Austin scoffed. I looked at him. he looked right back at me.

"no it wasn't. I know you, Little miss Irish. what's really wrong?" he asked. I might as well tell them.  I got up, grabbed my phone, tapped in the Twitter app, and let him scroll through the hate. at some comments he gasped. others he growled. (A/N: BTW he looks like Chase Ellison).

"show me your wrists. I know you cut before," he said. Oh shit.

"W-why? I D-didn't cut," I stuttered. unexpectedly, him and Brandon grabbed my wrists abd pulled my sleeves up to expose my cuts.

"we have to tell Niall," he said. I looked him shocked.

"why? it's not like he will care," I said. the tears were threatening to spill.

"what makes you think that? he loves you," Brandon said. I scoffed.

"we have been gone for 2 weeks and he only came to see me once. he didn't even let me stay with him and the boys in their bus," I said with a tear falling.

"there isn't room. the buses are only so big," Brandon said.

"yeah and that is why me, Perrie, Jade, Leigh-Ann, Jesy, Nat, and Ari were all going to stay in this one. this one is smaller that theirs," I said. Brandon Sighed. he grabbed me and threw me over his shoulder.  he was pretty big built. I banged on his back as he carried me over to the boys bus. I got tired and finally stopped at they beaded the door. Eli knocked. I heard a lock click.

"Hey, are all of you here?" Austin asked.

"yeah. come in," I heard Louis answer. my stomach was tied in a knot and there was a lump in my throat. I was thrown onto a couch. all the boys were in front of me. I looked down. Brandon grabbed my arm and Austin grabbed my other one. they rolled my sleeves up. I heard gasps. I even heard a sob. my tears fell like a water fall.

"Why?" Niall choked out. I kept looking down. my hands were dropped. Austin explained to the boys all that I said. Niall grabbed me and pulled me into a hug.

"how could you think I don't love you? we are really busy. I'm sorry. I just wanted you to stay with girls. they understand you more. I'm so sorry. you can start with us off you really want to," Niall said. I shook my head. he was right. I was being stupid.

"no your right. just visit me more. I miss you," I said into his chest. his grip tightened.

"always princess," he said. I smiled. me and him sat and just talked. about how the fans shouldn't get to me. about movies I've seen. books. anything. I left at about 7. the girls were there and Niall told them about my issue and they are helping.

I walked into the bus and I got a video chat alert. I opened it. Ari and Natalie popped up on my screen. they both screamed. I jumped.

"what is your problem?" I asked laughing. they looked at me shocked because I didn't know.

"look on Twitter. it's so... just look," Nat said. I nodded.

"alright, but I don't know why your fangirling," I grabbed my phone and I had a Twitter mention.

@Matthew_Espinosa: I'm in Derby and would love to meet @Brookie_Horan! if u get this, meet me at Starbucks on 5 avenue tomorrow at 5!

I screamed! Matt Espinosa wants to meet with me? we are going to be in Derby tomorrow. we will be there for 2 days! I get to meet Matt Espinosa!!!!!!

"oh my god!!!! why would he want to meet me?" I asked. the girls shrugged. I heard  Ari's mom's voice.

"we gotta go but we will talk to you soon!" Nat said and signed off. I jumped up out of my chair and ran to the fridge. I grabbed the Oreos and looked at the clock. 11.04. oh well.

I ran out of my bus because we arnt leaving for Derby until 10 tomorrow morning. I pounded on the boys bus door. I banged until Haz answered the door. I pushed him out of the way and ran up to Niall. I jumped on his lap and he dropped his phone.

"holy, shit! Brooke!" he said. I jumped right to it.

"take me to Starbucks on 5th avenue at 4 tomorrow in Derby!" I said. I know he said 5 but a girl needs coffee.

"why?" Niall asked picking his phone up.

"so I can get coffee and meet Matt Espinosa! please please please please please please please plea-"

"oh my god! take the child to Starbucks!" Zayn yelled from his bunk.

"I can't tomorrow. me and Haz need to record," he said. I frowned. then I looked at Louis. I put on a pouty face and started fake crying.

"I guess I can't meet Matt. I'm sorry I bothered you," I said and got up. Louis stood up and hugged me.

"awww. I will take you. don't cry," he said. I smiled and hugged him.

"thanks Lou!" I said and ran off the bus. I didn't shut the door on my way out so I heard Louis say, "she just played me."