What have I become? (A Tokyo Ghoul fanfic) (NOT COMPLETED)(TRIGGER WARNINGS)

Chapter 8 continued "Heart break"

I get awakened by kayla she looks at me with a sad expression I sit up "Are you ok?" "I'm sorry but we have to break up..."  I feel my heart stop I feel like I can't breath. I look at her she is crying she hugs me "I'm sorry! I'm so so sorry!" I hug her tightly she pulls away she kisses me for a long time,she pulls away blushing slightly I blush slightly as well. "I still love you I just want you to know that" I stay quiet I think to myself *Damn is it wrong that I had two crushes? Fuck I'm so stupid* She stands up "I'm gonna take a shower is that alright?" "Yea I'm gonna walk around anyway" "Ok see you later". I get ready I head out I just walk not caring what would happen to me. The CCG officer runs into me "Hey are you alright?" "I guess"

"Would you like to hang out at my house so we can talk?" "Sure I don't care what happens to me." He looks at me "You really think? I'll  do something to you? I'm' not like that asshole!" i would never do anything like that to you!" He blushes a little *haha now i can tell he likes me* "I don't know i'm going through some shit right now" "it's fine that's why we are going to talk right now".  We end up at his house he lets me in "Your welcome to go sir on the couch" I go and sit on the couch. "Do you want anything to drink?" "Yes do you have any alcohol?" "Haha yes i'll be back"

He comes back with two beers "Drink up" he hands me one "Thanks" I start drinking "Woah slow down!" I giggle he blushes "Y-your s-so cute..." "What!? you think I'm cute?!" "Yes I liked you ever since we meet" he leans in to kiss me I close my eyes not knowing what to do. I then feel his warm lips I blush we kiss for a while. We break apart "Shit I should head home" "What!? but your slightly drunk!!" "It's alright I'll have my friend pick me up" "Alright". "Hey Andrew sorry to bother you this late but can you pike me up from 1940 Green Rd?" I'm slightly drunk and I can't walk home" "It's alright I'll see you soon :)". A couple minutes later he shows up.

"I'm here" "Alright" I get up I head to the door I turn around the officer is asleep on the couch I head outside and I get in the car. I just sit there and silently think "Why the fuck didn't I say "I'm sorry I can't"  to him then the kiss would have never happened" Andrew breaks me out of my thoughts "Hey Emiri are you ok?" "Yea just thinking..."  "I heard what happened with your girlfriend I'm really sorry we are just gonna go to my house is that ok?" "Sure I'm slightly drunk and fucking tired" We are at Andrews house he gets out and he opens the door for me "Oh thanks" "No problem". 

He walks up to his house and opens the front door and he heads inside. "Would you like anything to drink?" "Yes water please" "Alright" a few moment later he comes back with a bottle of water "Here you go" then he collapses on the couch "I've missed you so much," I say blushing slightly "Haha I missed you too" he says hugging me, he realises me and he lays back I sit there awkwardly "you ok?" "W-what y-yea!" I say blushing. He laughs "It's so funny when you blush"

I blush harder he chuckles then he gently grabs my face and he kisses me my eyes widen with shock *I didn't think he would kiss me I have liked him for a long time i never thought he Did* he stops kissing then he looks at me " What's wrong?" "N-nothing I just thought you didn't like me so I was just shocked" "Haha! I've always liked you I was just embarrassed to tell you" he says rubbing his neck.

I blush and I throw my arms around him "I'm glad" then I let go. He stared at me "W-what are you staring at?!" I say blushing "nothing" my stomach growls my eye changes I can tell I quickly put my head down "i-im gonna go to the bathroom!" I hurry up and I run to the bathroom. I look at myself in the mirror I start crying "What the fuck is wrong with me!?" I collapse to the floor and I cry harder. Andrew comes up to the door I hear a few knocks "Hey...can I come in?" "Y-yea..."

I unlock the door and sit back down "Ya know I don't care if your a ghoul I won't rat you out because I don't fucking care if your a ghoul!" I look at him and I smile weakly "Here come,let's go" he stands up and he offers me his hand I grab his hand and I pull myself up he opens the bathroom door and then he leads me to the bedroom...

A/N: Sorry that I haven't updated in a while I know that my story is shit I will try my hardest to make this story better anyway sorry about my nonsense I will probably update more tomorrow I don't know yet but maybe I will.😊