What have I become? (A Tokyo Ghoul fanfic) (NOT COMPLETED)(TRIGGER WARNINGS)

Chapter 10 "Nightmares"

A/N: *WARNING* there is a close to rape scene in this chapter if you dont like this stuff I suggest that you dont read this chapter you have been warned 😞
I wake up in the middle of the night sweating I had a nightmare. I walk into Andrew's room "A-andrew?" He rolls over "Yea?" He sits up. He can see the tears running down my face. "C-can I sleep with you?" "Sure" i walk to the bed and I lay down. I lay there awkwardly "You don't have to be embarrassed of sleeping with me..." "i-i know but I'm scared of what happened to me will happen again" "listen to me...its only if you let it happen it will happen again".

I turn to him and I hug him super tight and I whisper "Thank you" then I fall asleep. I wake up i see that I'm really close to Andrew I think to myself *A-ahh! D-did we do something!?!?* I scramble out of bed and I run to the bathroom I pant really hard. I whisper "Shit! I hope nothing happened" ,Andrew knocks on the door "Are you ok!?"

I blush I think to myself *I should ask him if anything happend last night*. "U-uh yea" I open the door I look at the floor "D-did anything happen last night?..." he lifts my chin "I promise we didn't do anything" then he kisses my forehead. "You can go back to sleep if you want I'm going to make breakfast" "I'm not tired so I'll help you make breakfast"

"Haha alright" we head to the kitchen
I stop walking "Wait... I for got that I can't eat human food disgusting." "oh right I can just eat some cereal it's no big deal". "I'll just go lay back down" "Oh alright" I walk away to the bedroom I flop down on Andrew's bed. I lie there looking at the ceiling for a while, he walks into the room "Hey..." I sit up "Oh hey".

I stand up "I should get going see you later I guess" I walk over to him and I kiss him "Bye...". I run really fast to my ex girlfriends house "Oh hey I was worried about you" she hugs me and I hug her back "Are you alright?" "Yea just came to get my stuff" "oh...ya know I still love you..." she says getting closer to me she pushes me up to the wall and she kisses me.

My eyes widen I push her away "Stop I can't do this you broke up with me remember?" She looks at me with sad eyes, "You know what I should go" "But you didn't get your stuff" "Fine...". Then I go to the spare room to get my stuff. I get all my things and I place them on the bed. She pushes me down on the bed she gets on top of me "Come on ya know you want to please me..." she says sliding her finger down my chest "Please get off me why are you acting like this?" I say with tears I'm my eyes.

She gets off of me "I-im sorry I didn't know you thought of what happened with him...ill help you get your things" I stand up and I grab my stuff and ibset it in the box. She puts the rest of the stuff in the box. "I'm sorry about everything..." "It's fine because that's what everyone says all the fucking time,I'll see you later" I say grabbing the box of my things then I turn away.

I head outside i see Andrew in his car. I hurry up and I get in his car "Hey are you ok?" I whisper "Please let's
Just go home..." "Alright..." we arrive at Andrew's house. He takes the box from me and I open the door for him "Why thank you" he says smiling at me I blush then I head inside. "I-i f-feel weird" I say before I pass out.

Later I wake up in Andrew's bed "E-emiri! Y-your bleeding!!" His hand is on my wound "Shit! It's bleeding again!!". He looks at me with tears in his eyes "I-its ok I-im fine" I sit up "do you have gauze? And if you do can you help me rap my wound up?" "Yes I do I can help you" I stand up and I head to the bathroom. He follows "Just to let you know your going to have to take off your pants so I can your wound, it's ok I won't do anything"

"O-ok..." I slip off my pants I look down *shit!my underwear is doled in blood!!* I cover myself embarrassed. "Here I'm hurry up and wrap it" he takes my hands off and he wraps my wound quickly. "There I'm finished" "I don't have any clean clothes maybe I should run to my ex girlfriends house and get some" "Oh no it's ok I can run and grab it for you while you rest" "Alright here take my spare key" I say handing my spare key to him.

"See you in a bit", then he walk off "Oh wait what's her address?" "Oh 1987 Cemetery St". I walk to his room and I lay down and then I fall asleep. I can feel someone gently shaking Me "Emiri wake up" and I sit up "ugh what time is it?" "Its about 6:40 Pm also I got your clothes I grab the clothes then I hop in the shower . I get out of the shower then I get dressed. *I'm going to take a walk* I walk out the bathroom "Hey Andrew! I'm going to take a walk" "Alright be safe!" I grab my shoes and my hoddie and I put them on then I walk out of the house.

I'm walking around for a then I'm grabbed. I can hear the stranger whisper "Do what I tell you and you won't get hurt". I can feel my blood boiling *I WON'T LET THIS HAPPEN!!* I can feel my eye change I smirk. I whisper "Your going to die you basterd" i turn around I go close to his neck. I whisper "Dumnass" then I bite his neck "A-ahh w-what the fuck!?" He says grabbing his neck. I back up then I run til force at him and I kick him I'm his stomach, he land into the wall he lies there bleeding out.

"Have fun burning in hell.." I say walking away. I hurry and I run home (I use the ally ways so no one will see me). I get home I slam the door shut behind me, Andrew looks at me, he can see blood running from my mouth and that I'm shaking. I fall to  my knees I start crying *why!?* Andrew runs over to me "E-emiri!" I sit there crying and shaking.

"I-im had to k-kill him..." "Kill who!?" "I-i don't know but he was forcing me to have sex with him.." "Come on let's get you cleaned up" he says as he offers me his hand he leads me to the bathroom, he gets a wet rag and he wipes the blood from my mouth. "There we go" "c-can we go to the room?..." "Sure" he takes me to the room, I lay down "p-please lay with me". He doesn't say anything he just lays down with me.

I lay there staring off in space, he falls asleep I'm stuck here not knowing what the fuck to do.