What have I become? (A Tokyo Ghoul fanfic) (NOT COMPLETED)(TRIGGER WARNINGS)

Chapter 12 "More Nightmares"

I wake up sweating again and i'm breathing fast. I whisper "God fucking damit..." "Emiri?" *I forgot I was laying with Andrew* (Don't make tjis sound wrong) "Yea?" "what is up with these nightmares?" "I don't know but they are driving me crazy" my stomach growls. *God being around Andrew is making me hungry I wouldn't want to kill him! Shit! I should leave to the cafe to get a package* "Hey I'm gonna go some where real quick I'll be right back"

"Alright...no! I'm going with you!" "Andrew..if you come with me the other ghouls will kill and eat you. So I want you to stay here please it's for your own good..". "Alright I'll see you soon..." he says as he leans in to kiss my forehead. I hurry up and I get dressed and I leave the house. I walk to the cafe, it's 2:00Am hopefully they will still be open. I see the manager, I shout "Mr Yoshimora!" He looks at me with that half closed eye smile. "Ahh..Emiri what are you doing up so late?"

I whisper "I was wondering if I can get a package?" "Oh yes that's fine come inside". We both go inside he leads me to the freezer, he hands me a package. "And don't be afraid to come back and get another one." "Thank you Mr. Yoshimora" then I leave. I walk back home thinking to myself *I almost killed Andrew... if I can't control myself I'm going to leave for a while..just until I can control myself.*

I'm home now I see Andrew sleeping on the couch, I start crying I cover my mouth so I don't make a sound. I fall to my knees and I cry harder. Andrew rolls over "Emiri? You there?" He says rubbing his eyes, I whisper "yes.." he sits up "come here.." I walk over to him I sit by him "I know why you left.. you left because you almost killed me, and now your planing on leaving until you can control yourself" I look at him "You understand.." "Of course I do.."

He says grabbing my face and he places his forehead on mine. "You won't have to leave.." I whisper "I can't control myself.." he kisses me kind of hard I cry a little *I really do like him I wouldn't want to leave him..but it might be for the best*. Then a voice pops into my head *your a slut why would a guy like him like you? Think back to all the shit you did with your ex. You let it happen! You wanted it to happen! Do you want to lose your virginity?! Because that's what it seems like! If you keep talking

To other guys! Then they'll think you want sex! SO STOP ACTING LIKE A SLUT AND STOP TRYING TO GET ATTENTION FROM GUYS!* *Maybe your right* I think to myself. "Emiri? Emiri?" Andrew says breaking into my thoughts, I wipe away my tears I didn't even know I was crying. "Emiri?" Andrew says again. I whisper "Please just leave me alone" I say getting up and walking away and leaving the house. I walk along the empty sidewalks *Maybe I won't do that slut shit again!*

I let my eye come out and I scream "COME GET ME DOVES!!" I let my Kagane come out i shoot my crystals at the building on the right side of me. I then see the dove that I was hanging out with (I think) a week ago, his mouth is wide open "Emiri?.." I can see the pain in his eyes, "I know I'm your friend...but I'm going to have to kill you". He makes his breef case into a quinqe *ITS A CHIMERA QUINQUE!?* but this one is like a whip type quinqe.

Before I can act I'm stabbed *Maybe this is the part were I die*, but then I here a voice "No! stop! Emiri!" The dove looks up at Andrew. I choke "y-you better let me go b-before I kill. Y-you a-and I d-dont want to kill you". My Kagane fades and so does my eye, but before I can do anything I'm stabbed by a female ghoul."Hehehe this one is mine bitch!" Her Kagane is raped around my waist tightly she is naked "You think just because your a ghoul you can go around trying to kill doves!?" Then she throws me at the wall

"This dove is all mine!" I get up and my Kagane come back so does my eye  "You stupid bitch LEAVE HIM ALONE!", I kick her really hard in the back she flies into the sidewalk in front of her. "Andrew just run!"  He runs away before she can catch him as for the dove he stands there. I throw myself on him then I whisper "If she tries to kill you she'll have to get through me".

Just then I feel her Kagane stab into my back I cough up blood onto the doves face he hurrys up and he pushes me off then he runs away all the ghoul is worried about now is me. She gets on her knees and whispers into my ear "You think you can stop me?" My Kagane disappears as well as my eye. Before she can finish me off two doves walk up behind us "Well, well,well if it isn't reze kurnishima..." the other dove says

"Killing the innocents again?" "What the fuck are you talking about? She is A GHOUL!" "The only ghoul I see here is you!". He pulls out his quinqe, before she can act he stabs the quinqe  into her stomach she chokes on her blood then she falls to the ground dead. The two doves pick me up "Are you ok miss?" I cough up blood "I-I guess" "let's see how bad this is" he sticks his hand in my back "AHH! T-THAT HURTS"

He pulls out his hand and it's covered with my blood. "Shit that looks back come on let's fix you up" he passes me to the other dove then we walk to head quarters. *shit what if they find out I'm a ghoul!?* "Are you ok miss?" "Yea but maybe I should leave" "whatever you say..", he puts me down then I sprint home but I'm bleeding alot when I'm sprinting. I show up at andrew's house I burst through the door "Andrew!? Please help me!"

He comes running out of the room he runs at me and he grabs me he puts me on the table. He then runs to the bathroom he comes back with a first aid kit and some surgery needles "This is going to hurt like hell" he starts stitching me up "AHH! THAT HURTS" I cry and I move trying to get rid of the pain. "I'm sorry..." he keeps going "NO NO NO! AHH!" I cry harder than I pass out.

A/N: That picture up there 👆 is what my character looks like we'll her hair is different now but what ever