Teenage Hearts (JTR FanFiction)

Broken Smile

CHRISTMAS 

Robin's POV

"What are you doing tonight?" Tom asked as the episode of Family Guy that we were watching ended and I shrugged. "Depends on what Kristen wants to do, it's going to be our first christmas together so I want to spend it with her. I wrote her a song but I'm not sure if I'm going to end up showing her." I smiled and Tom laughed "You're so whipped." 

I rolled my eyes at his response. "Maybe I am. What are you doing tonight?" I asked and he smiled "I'm going to video call Rosa, and stay in with John, Marshall and Hayley." Tom replied and I nodded.

"Where is Kristen anyway?" John asked as he entered the lounge room. "Where you standing there the whole time?" Tom laughed and John nodded. "I was going to come in but I got distracted and ended up watching half of that episode from the door way." John admitted and I chuckled. 

"Kristen's in her room, I'm going to go see what she want to do tonight." I smiled and left the room, walking through the hallway to Kristen's room.

I smiled at the baby pictures on the wall as I past, Kristen's door was open so I looked in before entering to make sure she wasn't changing or anything. I frowned when I saw her sitting on the end of her bed with her legs dangling off the edge, she was turning pages in her sketch book slowly and I watched as a few stray tears fell down her cheeks. 

She wiped the tears away with the back of her hand and I walked up to her. "Oh hi" Kristen spoke once she had seen me and closed the sketch book while furiously wiped away her tears, hoping that I had not seen them. 

"What's wrong?" I asked concerned and she shook her head. "Nothing is wrong, I'm completely fine." Kristen lied and I sighed, sitting next to her. "You don't have to lie to me, ever. I don't want you to think that. I love you with all I have and all that I am, I would never judge you. So tell me what's wrong, please?" I asked and she broke down, sobbing into her small hands. 

I pulled her on to my lap and she rested her head in my chest. "I don't even know what's wrong or why I am so upset. I was just looking through my old drawings and remembering when my depression and anxiety was really bad. And then I remembered christmas is today and I haven't seen my mum in ages. Last christmas I was still with Carter and it was before he hit me and my mum was home. I'm just sad Robin, I know I shouldn't be because it's christmas and I have great friends and an amazing boyfriend. I am so in love with you and I have a good life now. I should be happy and instead of making christmas cookies and making out with my boyfriend I am hiding in here by myself crying over bullshit that happened in the past." Kristen groaned, slapping her forehead and I smiled sadly. 

"Baby, it's okay to be sad about things that happened in the past. The important thing is that you try to focus on the positive in life. For example; you have a boyfriend who loves you more than anything in the entire world, you are so beautiful, Your mum loves you and she is doing the best she can to provide for you, you have amazing supportive friends and you are doing amazing in college. The positive things I like to focus on are I am dating a girl with a cute accent that is completely out of my league and my band is taking off just how I want it to. Things are great if you don't focus on things in the past. Now, make out with me and we can go make ginger bread men." I grinned lopsidedly and Kristen laughed. "I'm so in love with you" she smiled, pulling my face closer by pulling on my chin.

She pushed her lips on to mine and wrapped her arms around my neck and her legs around my waist. I rested my hands on her waist and kissed her back. "Hey pervert" Hayley's voice called from the doorway. "Hayley!" Kristen squealed as she broke away from the kiss. Jumping off my lap to hug her cousin. Hayley had left a few months ago to go back home. So had John, Tom and I but we decided to come back to stay with Kristen over christmas while her mum was on yet another business trip.