: the one where it gives jennie headaches to really define the word 'friends' when it comes to lisa
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i reached my forefinger on the left side of her head then poked it as hard as how lisa's stubborn head seemed to be. "that's what you get..."
she giggles, but not the kind that i love. "i know." i couldn't see it because of the darkness, but i know lisa's smile vanished the moment it appeared.
"you shouldn't have lied to him lisa." i spoke out of silence.
"i didn't have a choice, jennie."
"you had, and yet you picked the wrong one." i turned to look at her as she also did the same.
"i messed up bigtime this time, right?"
"yes you did."
she released a long sigh as she continued to maneuver the wheel. i honestly don't know where we're heading, but i don't really care. lisa probably needs some escape like this, and being with her is enough for me.
before this very moment of the evening, my heart was racing. lisa texted me, asking if i wanna go out for a ride. well, i knew this was something for her to cope up from whatever shit her life is going through right now, and perfect timing, she's on a little feud with bobby.
and like the many stupid times, i didn't hesitate to say yes. it was no question for me. whenever lisa needs me, i'm always there.
and to do things for her and simply just being able to have the slightest chance of spending time with her, is my greatest joy. though maybe for her, is not.
am i that hopeless?
am i that stupid...
to fall in love with my friend?
lisa and i became fast friends when we had humanities class together. i was the weird, somewhat introvert being and she's the outgoing one, too much if you ask.
she was the one who approached me, taking the vacant seat beside mine and started to joke about our professor while i'm very busy listening to its discussion.
she was annoying then, but everytime i turn to her and see that teethed smile, i lose the game.
she was lively, very friendly perhaps. many students know her in the campus. so sometimes i wonder, why would she even try to be friends with me? someone who's not as interesting as her?
initially, i keep ignoring her. but she keeps on sitting on that vacant seat beside mine and the more she talks, the more i fell into her pithole.
i didn't know it then. i just thought, maybe she's really friendly. and she's pretty.
more classes passed, more shared snack time passed, more teethed smile she keeps on flashing to me, more clingyness and flirtiness, i knew... i knew i like her.
yes, she was flirty. and i like it.
we both know each others preferences, i know about her past with other girls and she also knows about this painful past i had with my ex-girlfriend.
